Life Update: What’s Really Been Going On

Hey guys,

I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe throughout everything that has been going on in the world recently.

Life has been really crazy, and I’m not even just talking about with quarantine anymore…..but that’s a conversation for another day.

I wanted to make this post today to be honest with you guys and let you in on what’s been going on with me recently. I made a YouTube video talking all about it a few days ago which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out.

I wanted to be able to make a blog post talking about it because I know I sort of have a different type of audience here then I do on my other platforms and that parts of my audience would rather read then watch videos on things like this, so here we are.

I know in my previous blog posts I had mentioned how I was really content throughout our time in quarantine and actually really enjoyed it and was getting a ton of work done, but I guess deep down, that wasn’t true at all.

My guess is that although originally I was content in the beginning and okay with being home all this time, the more time I spent at home, the more it started to get to me….

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About a month ago on May 14th, I suffered from what I can only assume was my first panic attack. It was a random Thursday afternoon at about 5pm, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary other than working like I always did, when suddenly I started to feel really weird internally. I started to feel lightheaded and almost like my heart rate was dropping. So, I went into the kitchen to see and talk to my mom in hopes that it would distract me and the feeling would go away, because I figured that I was probably just sitting in front of my computer for too long. When I got up, I felt slightly worse, and I told my mom what I was feeling, that it felt like I could barely breath and like I was going to pass out at any minute (thankfully I didn’t though). We weren’t really sure what was happening so all we did was have me drink really cold water and throw some cold water on my face and neck. After I just walked up and down my driveway to get some air and stretch my legs…..that was the first episode. It went away shortly after that, but it was the  official start of me having anxiety.

The next serious/scary episode was about 3 days later when my mom and I decided to take a little walk to this store nearby our house. Well that “little walk” ended up turning into a 5 mile one when we decided to walk to this Target that’s about 20 minutes more or less away. The walk going was nice, we took our time and just enjoyed it all, but once we actually got to the Target, everything changed…we got there and the line to get in was a little ridiculous, but people were telling us that it was going relatively quick, so we decided to wait about 5-10 minutes on line and see how far we got. As SOON as we got to the back of the line, I immediately started to feel almost exactly how I did on Thursday, and like I was going to pass out. I obviously got very nervous since we were in a very public place and it was just mom and I. Within 2 minutes, I ended up telling my mom that we should just go, so we did. I honestly don’t even know how I managed to get home. The whole walk home was miserable, my chest was tight, I was lightheaded and my right arm started to feel numb-ish. It was all just very scary. We finally ended up getting home, and again, everything ended up being somewhat okay and going away.

The days following this one were on and off…..one day I would feel anxious and uneasy, the next, I was fine. The whole thing was just really scary because who ever wants to feel like they can’t breath, even if it is all mental? The more it happened, the more freaked out and anxious I was throughout the day; constantly feeling nervous, constantly feeling my heart area to make sure that it WAS beating, etc. It was even scarier not knowing WHY any of this was happening. We had our guesses, but we had no way to know for sure.

Due to the circumstances of COVID-19, relatively everything was still closed at the time, and the last thing we wanted to do was go all the way to the hospital with all of this going on, if it wasn’t serious,  AND rack up a ridiculous hospital bill for the check-up. However, the Tuesday following Memorial Day weekend , we were FINALLY able to get an appointment with my primary physician. It was the most exciting and nerve-racking thing. Exciting because I was FINALLY going to find out if something was wrong, but nerve-racking because what if something WAS wrong and serious?

Sure enough, thank GOD, my doctor checked all the important stuff (my heart, lungs, stomach and blood pressure) and everything internally was fine to him. Although he’s not a therapist in any way, shape or form, based off of everything I was telling him that I felt, he basically confirmed what we were all assuming it was, which was stress and anxiety.

As soon as we left the doctor I almost instantly felt a wave of relief. Yes, it still sucked that I was feeling and going through all of these things, but unbelievably relieved to know that it was nothing seriously wrong with me internally. It also almost entirely confirmed what we assumed it was, so we were then able to actually look into things and treatments for anxiety. It gave us some type of clarity.

Ever since than, I’ve been doing research like crazy online, readings books about it, and looking for recommendations for how to help my anxiety.

It’s been a little over a month now that I’ve been dealing with this, and although it can be really scary, there are good and bad days, and I can honestly say that things haven’t been anywhere near as bad as they were when it all started. I think I’m finally getting a handle on this.

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I want to apologize because I almost feel like I lied to you guys about how I was feeling in my previous posts, but it wasn’t my intention. I genuinely felt like I was content and okay with being home working all this time, but deep down like I said, I wasn’t. I guess between quarantine from the virus and everything else going on in the news/world, it really started to get to me.

It got so bad that I couldn’t focus on my work, and I was barely eating and sleeping. Anxiety can be such a scary thing if you don’t know or learn how to control it. It makes you feel like you’re losing yourself and you have no control of getting yourself back.

In my next post, I’m going to be sharing with you guys some of the things that have been helping me cope/ease my mind and anxiety for the past month, so make sure you stay tuned for that.

I hope this post was informative and gave you guys a better sense of where I’ve been and how I’ve really been doing. It’s been really hard, and it’s kind of felt like I’ve lost myself in the past month or so, but everyday I’m working towards getting better, stronger and healthier again, and I can’t wait for the day that I can finally say I’m 100% feeling myself again.

It was also really important for me to share this with you guys in hopes of it possibly inspiring someone else to come out with their story and showing them that they’re not alone. I know that was a major issue for me when this all started was that I felt really emotional and alone, because I could explain it a million different times to a million different people, but them knowing that I’m healthy and never actually experiencing it for themselves, they’ll never really understand. So, if you happen to be someone going through this as well, please feel free to comment below or reach out to me privately so we can talk about it and connect. I would love to hear from you guys about it.

Thanks you guys for reading and following me on this new little journey of mine. I hope you continue to stick around and hopefully see a better me soon.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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My Favorite Healthy-ish Snacks

(*None of which are actually shown in the image, I just couldn’t really find anything better for the sake of the post’s cover photo haha.*)

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Hi Guys! 🙂

For today’s post I wanted to share with you guys a list of some of my favorite healthy-ish snacks.

I thought this would be a good post because if you’re anything like me, you’re a HUGE snacker, and even though we may be trying to diet a little more and clean up our eating, old habits die hard.

And personally, for me, the hardest part of “dieting” is not being able to snack the way that I used to (obviously it’s for a greater purpose, but nonetheless, I miss it so much sometimes 🥺😩)

So, that being said, I wanted to share with you guys some of my healthy-ish alternatives that have been working pretty well for me whenever I want and/or feel the urge to snack; they’re nothing crazy and also not that bad macro-wise, which make them even better.

I figure since there’s some variety to the different snacks I eat, why not break them up into categories?

The categories I chose were chocolate-related, chips (although some also include popcorn and crackers), and just “other” because there’s a few different things going on in that category.

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So, without further adieu, here are some of my current favorite snacks:

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*For all of the Fiber One brand snacks, some of the main nutrition facts to look out for are shown right there on the boxes.*

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The Fiber One snacks are really great because this brand alone, comes with a variety of snacks for you to choose from. A lot of them tend to be like 90 calories only which is why you’ll see that end up being advertised the most. It’s great because they’re pretty tiny for you to just grab one and go, which is usually what I end up doing everyday. I’ll pack my lunch, throw one of these in my bag for a midday snack, and I’m ready to go! 🙂

 

The Len & Larry complete cookies are pretty good, but they’re also pretty hefty when it comes to the amount of calories that are within them (total calories for 1 serving, which is technically only half of the cookie, is 200 calories!!). A lot of people tend to say that they’re also pretty bland and dry tasting, but for a while I REALLY liked them……until they came out with the complete CRUNCHY cookie (shown on the right side)!!!

Guys, if i had to recommend either of them to you right now, I would instantly say go with the crunchy cookies, they’re SO good, and not as crazy when it comes to the calories per serving size. 1 serving size is 6 cookies and comes out to 160 calories.

Although in general, as I always say, you should try them both and come to your own conclusion(s) about them.

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Chips

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In general, I LOVE to snack on Ritz crackers which is why there are 2 different “kinds” shown here. I think they’re SO good. But if I had to choose between all the different flavors, etc. I think I would say that these 2 shown are my absolute favorites.

The toasted chips have a nice somewhat subtle salty taste to them, and each serving is is 1oz which is about 8 chips, and comes out to 130 calories, whereas the Hint of Salt crackers, have VERY little salt to them at all, but still taste good to me. A serving of these is 16 grams, which is about 24 crackers and equates 80 to calories.

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These are my absolute FAVORITE chips. If I go to any store now and am on the hunt for chips, I’ll most likely be finding and grabbing for these (unless it’s a cheat-day and I’m craving something else 😂). 1 serving size of these is about 15 chips, and comes out to 160 calories.

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I really don’t tend to crave popcorn like that anymore the way that I used to when I was younger, but the few times I do, I’ll opt for grabbing a bag of this. It’s gluten free, light, airy and just generally tastes really good. This is also a great snack because since it’s so light, the calories in just one bag are super low, it’s only 100 calories. That’s really not bad at all for like a midday or late night little snack.

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Others

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Recently whenever I really am craving some ice cream, Halo Top has been my way to go. Diego actually introduced me to this brand. The great thing about this ice cream brand is that it’s low carb, low fat, AND high protein; and depending what flavor you end up getting will depend on how many total calories are in that one pint (which is shown right on the front of it). My personal two favorite flavors are the cookies and cream (320 calories total) and chocolate chip cookie dough (360 calories total) ones (highly recommend you try those).

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I used TO love fruit snacks when I was a kid, but it had gotten to a point that I ate them so much, I ended up disliking them for a LONG time. But, recently I’ve begun to really like and want them again. I like the Mixed Fruits one, but if I had to choose between the two, I would 100% go for the Berries ‘N Cherries flavored ones. This again, is not too terrible of a snack for throughout the day. One pouch goes for about 80 calories total.

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I’m not usually a HUGE fan of yogurts, but nowadays if I ever actually want and/or crave one, chances are, I’m going to be going for one of these. These are great because each package comes with a little side for the yogurt, along with another side for the toppings of that specific flavor. My personal favorites include Cookies and Cream (190 calories), Almond Coco Loco (230 calories), Smores (180 calories), and Peanut Caramel Satisfaction (200 calories).

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I hope you guys enjoyed this post, and that in some way, shape or form, if you’re anything like me and are in need of looking for some healthy-ish alternatives for snacking, this helped you.

When it comes to things like this, it all comes down to personal preference. You really just need to try a bunch of these things and really figure out what you like, what you don’t, what works for you and what doesn’t. What works for me, may very well not work for you, BUT you have some new possible recommendations here that you can try out and hopefully end up liking!

What are some of your guys’ favorite stuff to snack on when you’re in the mood (whether they’re full-on healthy or healthy-ish like a lot of my suggestions)?! Do we have any of the same favorites? Maybe you have some that you could recommend for ME to try! Let me know in the comments, I’d love to hear from you guys ☺️👇🏼

As always, thank you guys so much for reading, please follow, like, share and comment and I’ll see you guys in my next post! 🙂

*Also, something for you guys to think about….I’ve really been wanting to do some sort of Q&A post for a while now and have already been getting a few questions from people on my social media, so if you’re interested (either in the comments below, reaching out to me directly on social media or through email), ask me some questions of things you guys would like to see me address in that post! 😀 The questions can literally be about anything; my blog, my future, relationships, family, personal stuff, etc. etc. I want to make it as fun and interesting for you guys as possible, so don’t be shy! 🙂 *

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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1-Year Fitness Update!

Hey Everybodyyyy! Happy Hump Day! 🙂

In today’s post I really wanted to be able to talk to you guys about my 1-year fitness update; how it’s been going, where I’m at with it right now, and where I hope to be in the next few months (my goal).

This is something that I’m a little nervous about, as I’m sure most people would be, just because health, fitness and weight in general, are all really sensitive topics to speak about, especially in this day and age. However, I thought it was important to share this with you guys for a few different reasons.

Important because firstly, it’s a pretty big milestone (for me). Secondly, because who knows, maybe somehow or another me speaking about this will help and/or inspire someone else in their own fitness journey, or to even START their own fitness journey. And lastly (although this sort of piggy-backs off of the first two reasons), because I just recently did an entire post on confidence and self-love (which I’ll leave linked here if you guys wanted to check it out), and so what kind of person/writer would I be if I didn’t speak out on something as important as body-positivity and self-love more in-depth for something as sensitive as this?

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How The Past Year Has Been Going:

The first thing I want to speak about with this is probably the most obvious thing, which is, how this past year has been (fitness-wise). And well….let’s be honest, dieting is hard and it sucks ass. You really have to learn self- control when it comes to something like this, ESPECIALLY if you’re used to eating a certain way for a certain amount of years, which I pretty much was.

I’ve mentioned it before, several times, but I am not only a picky-eater, I’m also a MAJOR junk-food eater. Put those 2 things together, and you’ve pretty much got a recipe for disaster (in my case anyway).

Now, I’ve never been the best eater, throughout my entire life. BUT, I will say that it got really bad when I was away in college (as I’ve spoken about once before in my first health post, the reasons for this, etc. which I’ll leave linked here ). I gained A LOT of weight in college, I would actually say that the majority of my weight gain happened in college (freshmen 15 is no joke ya’ll even though it extended over the course of 4-years, but whateverrr!).

But it just got to a point where I literally weighed the heaviest that I EVER did. I definitely wasn’t obese, but for my age, height, etc. the weight I was at (at the time) was NOT good. Plus, I was not happy and/or confident in my body AT ALL. It was a bad time, for a long time. And I’m sure other people noticed it obviously, but few actually told me about it. Which was fine I suppose, because it’s one of those things that you kind of just need to see/realize for yourself in order to make any sort of change.

There were times where Diego would REALLY try to push me to go to the gym, and I would go, but then I would just be eating whatever still before or after it, so it was completely defeating the purpose. It took a few months after I started my fitness journey for it to REALLY start. And what I mean by that is, for a good 4-5 months, I had gotten the whole working out, and going to the gym consistently part down, but I wasn’t taking the food portion of it seriously, so I hadn’t been seeing results.

It wasn’t until about May that I started to take both super seriously, not to the point that I turned anal about it, but to the point where I actually started seeing results now, so it was the actual exciting part.

And I’m not going to lie to you guys, it’s hard af to keep up a diet, there were SO many times when I would give in to any/all of the cravings that I had, whether it was with regular food or junk food, and would see what little progress I made turn to shit. However, I learned to not only control those urges, but also not deprive myself of the little things that I wanted, and would find healthier alternatives to go around that, while also being able to stick to my diet.

Every once in a while like during “that time of the month,” it gets a little difficult because of cravings and what not, but over time I have actually really felt like it’s gotten easier.

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Where I’m At Now:

Between going to the gym AT LEAST 4-5 times a week, and cleaning up my eating TREMENDOUSLY, I have seen SUCH an insane amount of progress.

I think you guys can agree with me that how we perceive ourselves and our bodies can be really iffy sometimes. Sure, you have your days where you’re feeling GREAT and super confident with yourself throughout workouts, after workouts, etc., but there are also those days where you pretty much look exactly the same, but the confidence just isn’t there. You don’t feel yourself which, as a result, causes your confidence to diminish a little.

Well in general, that’s happened to me pretty frequently, especially since, although I know I’ve made a lot of progress, I’m not quite where I want to be yet and some days are harder than others to see the results that a lot of other people see, in yourself.

HOWEVER, I’ve learned that I really need to give myself credit when it’s due, and little by little (with each pound being shed), I have been gaining the confidence back that I used to have a few years ago.

I think my progress actually hit me the most thanks to some pictures that I took last Thursday (on Thanksgiving). I’m not exactly sure what I was doing or why I was doing it, but at some point during the night I was scrolling through old pictures on my phone and came across the ones I took last year for Thanksgiving. It didn’t fully occur to me until I decided to do a side-by-side picture of that and the one(s) I had just taken earlier that day and this is what I saw:

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Last year thanksgiving vs. thanksgiving this year…a 26 pound difference. On the left, I was at about 203lbs and currently, on the right, I’m at 177.

I’m not at all happy and/or proud of the way I look on the left side, in fact, I’m kind of embarrassed to be showing that picture compared to me now, BUT I am SUPER proud to see how much of a difference between the two there really is.

If you know me, and even if you don’t really but follow me on social media and see my posts, you would know in recent months how much work I’ve truly been putting in at the gym, and this is just proof of that. I am super proud of where I currently am at now and can’t wait to see where I’m going to be in a few months with this fitness journey of mine!!

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Where I Want To Be (My Goal):

As I said earlier, I’m not at all where I want to be yet, but I know that slowly but surely, I’m getting to meet that goal.

Ultimately, my main goal is to lose another 10-15 pounds and tone up my body a little more, then just continue to maintain it from there.

If I continue the work-out and eating regimen that I currently have, I really don’t see how or why I wouldn’t achieve these mini goals that I have set for myself (unless of course I just happen to throw it all out the window one day, which I don’t count on doing).

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Overall, it definitely has NOT been an easy fitness journey for me, but looking back at where I once was, and seeing where I am now, is enough motivation for me to keep pushing through. Besides, I’m not looking for easy and never have. And between my own confidence and Diego behind me pushing me to keep going, I know I’m going to end up hitting all of my fitness goals sooner rather than later.

Well guys, that’s it. That is my 1-year fitness update. I hope you guys like this post, and that in some way, shape or form it helped and/or motivated you to keep pushing through your hurdles that may be stopping you from going to the gym or just continuing your own fitness journey. You CAN do it. It’s going to take time and dedication, but it is 100% possible. Keep pushing through and I promise you that you’ll end up seeing results!

Thank you guys so much for reading, please like, follow, comment and share, and I’ll see you guys in my next post! 🙂

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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