My First 2 Tattoo Experiences

Hey Everybody! The title of this post is self-explanatory, but I’m going to be speaking about my overall first experiences of getting tattooed; where I went, what I got, why I got it, and a ton of other things involving that.

Obviously everyone’s experiences are different and will be different, but I’m going to share with you guys how it was for me both times.

I really wanted to be able to document the first time I got tattooed, but it was so in the moment, that I completely forgot and by the time I thought about it, it was over. So, I’m going to be incorporating my first and second one in this.

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Firstly, I just want to start off by saying that I’ve always been interested in tattoos, like the artistic-ness of it, the meanings behind certain ones, etc. BUT, I really never thought I would ever be the type to want and/or get any. For a LONG time, I never even considered it. Like are you crazy?! Going through that pain, inking my body like that and having to literally live with it for the rest of my life!?! Naw, not for me, sorry….

However, I think that drastically changed (obviously lol) in the past year. I would say what really pushed me to get my first one, was when Spencer passed away almost a year ago (my cat who I wrote an entire post about and will leave linked here in case you wanted to check it out). It took me a while to really push myself to go and get it, but I knew that, for myself, I wanted and needed to do it for him.

I was researching like crazy, looking up ideas for what I wanted and trying to plan the entire thing out so it could be perfect. It was about a month after he passed that I settled on what exactly I wanted (which is pictured below).

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I finally ended up getting it on June 16, 2018.

I settled on what I wanted about a month after he passed away, but didn’t actually end up getting it done until about 6-7 months after I settled on it. There’s a variety of reasons for this, but mainly because of the nerves I had about it all.

I actually kind of got lucky because a friend of mine who I’ve literally known since I was a kid, is a tattoo artist, and so once I finally settled on what I wanted, I contacted her and she completely talked me through the whole thing and settled my nerves TREMENDOUSLY. Even on the day of, she was talking me through everything, answered every single question I had from the amount of pain I may be feeling, to the equipment she was using, etc. It was SO comforting and an overall great experience.

The name of the girl I went to is Shamalee Delacruz (her Instagram name is @tatubuny if you live in New York and wanted to check her and her work out, which you guys totally should). She is such a sweet person, and her work is really great. She’s so great at detail and making sure you get EXACTLY what it is you want, which is obviously extremely important when getting a tattoo. So I 100% recommend her if you’re considering getting any sort of tattoo work done.

I obviously spoke about the general meaning of it, as in who it was dedicated to, but to be more “specific”, my first one is just saying that Spencer will always be apart of me, in my heart. As for the placement of that tattoo, I got it on my wrist because it was somewhere that I knew I would always be able to see it. So now, whenever I miss him or anything, I just always look down, see it there and it always weirdly makes me feel better.

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So that was my first tattoo, which I got back in June. For my second one, which I just got done 2 days ago, I went to Shamalee again and got something that was extremely deep in meaning and important to me.

It always feels weird to talk about this one, just because it’s not something that I’m like trying to brag about to people, and I also just don’t generally talk about it much to anyone that isn’t super close to me (although I am trying to get better at being more vocal about it).

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Ultimately, the second one I got has to do with mental health. I’ve briefly spoken about it a few times on my blog before, but for those of you that are new and/or just didn’t know, I suffer from anxiety and depression. It’s something that I think I’ve always sort of dealt with throughout my life, but only recently did it start to get worse and really make me realize how real it is. This is something in my life that I’m probably always going to have to deal with, and if you know me, you know that I’m a fighter. But, when I have bad days, I have REALLY bad days, which I don’t always like to admit because of how intense it is, but the thought of suicide does come to mind every now and than. And I really don’t at all mean to say that light-heartedly, but it’s the truth, and because of that I decided to get this tattoo.

For those of you that don’t know, in literature, a semi-colon is used when an author could’ve ended a sentence, but chose not to. In this case, specifically, the author is myself and the sentence is my life. Something so tiny, yet so meaningful and impactful. So that’s the meaning of the semi-colon itself, as for the birds, I’ve just ALWAYS been obsessed with little bird tattoos for some reason, I think they’re so cute and just add more meaning to most tattoos. With that, a bird usually symbolizes freedom and perspective. See the finished product below.

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Got this one done on Saturday, September 29th.

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For both times, it was the weirdest thing because the days leading up to me actually getting them, I was nervous as hell. But the day of and throughout the entire process, I was strangely calm. Partly I’m sure because of how comfortable Shamalee made me, and I guess the other part is just because I knew how much they both meant to me and how badly I wanted them.

Which now leads me to one of the most important aspects of getting tattooed that most people wonder about….the pain. And rightfully so considering you should know more or less exactly what you’re getting yourself into before doing it. Now, as I mentioned earlier, everyone’s experience is and will be different, which means that everyone’s pain tolerance is different. Personally, being that I had never done anything remotely close to this before, I was pretty much going in blind since I had no form of reference for how much “pain” or not I was going to be in. The place that I got both my tattoos (the wrist area) is supposed to be an extremely sensitive spot for them; as in, it’s typically suppose to be more painful, especially since my second one kind of wraps around my wrist onto my bone. But personally, it really didn’t hurt much at all. It really just felt like hard, repetitive pinching….is that weird? Just me? Okay then….

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Overall, for both of my tattoos, I had two (thankfully) great and easy going experiences and healing processes.

And to be honest, I’m already addicted and planning what I might…..probably…..most likely will be getting next….don’t judge me!! 🌚

Anyway guys, that’s it for this post. Those were my first 2 tattoo experiences. I really hope that you guys enjoyed it. Leave me a comment down below or write to me on social media about what your first tattoo experience(s) were like, I’d love to hear from you about it! 😀

Thanks for reading, and I’ll see you guys in my next one.

*Special thanks again to Shamalee for doing this for me and making me feel super comfortable throughout it all, and for doing exactly what I wanted! As well as Diego for taking these great pictures! ❤ *

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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23 Things I’ve Learned At This Point of My Life

In light of my 23rd birthday today, I thought it would be nice to share with you guys 23 things that I’ve learned this past year and throughout my life in general thus far.

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In no particular order:

  1. Always put yourself and your happiness first, no matter the person or situation.

2. Don’t be afraid to take risks.

3. Not everyone is going to have the same mentality as you (regardless of in a positive or negative way).

4. Always make time for yourself at some point in the day, whether you’re reading, writing, going to the gym or doing something as simple as a skincare routine, it’s necessary for you to take care of yourself first to many extents.

5. Be grateful for everything in your life, whether big or small.

6. Don’t take things so seriously in life or personal.

7. Sometimes its okay to just walk away (from a person or situation).

8. Not all friendships are meant to last, no matter how long you’ve had them.

9. It’s okay to spend and enjoy time by yourself sometimes, in fact, it’s kind of necessary.

10. Don’t be afraid to lean on the people around you, whether that’s family, a significant other, or your closest friend(s). I 100% get not wanting to feel like a burden to people with your problems, but there are people around you who genuinely care about you and want to be there for you (even if it may be a handful or select few of people, they ARE there).

11. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes and fail.

12. Give yourself credit when it’s due, no matter how big or small the accomplishment, task, etc. is.

13. Treat yourself occasionally! Obviously try not to go overboard, but everyone deserves to be treated sometimes. Don’t wait for someone else to do it for you, do it for yourself. Get a mani/pedi, do some retail therapy, whatever it is that you want. If you know you’re a hard-worker and you deserve it, then why not?

14. Don’t ever be sorry for who or how you are. Unless you know it’s a bad habit or something that you need to change, but don’t ever let someone make you feel bad for being a certain way because chances are, you’re that way for a reason.

15. If you never try and put yourself out there, you’ll never really know what you’re capable of (in any/all aspects).

16. The type of energy and vibes that you send out towards people and to the world in general, is exactly what you’re going to get back. Nothing more, nothing less.

17. It’s okay to not always be okay. You don’t always have to be strong all the time, no matter what people or society in general may say or make it seem.

18. Everyone does things at their own pace, “Just because you took longer than others, doesn’t mean you failed or aren’t good enough.” Therefore, don’t compare yourself to anyone else.

19. Don’t let your issues and/or mistakes define who you are because they don’t. Learn from them and move forward with your life (to the best of your ability).

20. Make the best out of everything currently in your life, whether it’s a situation you’re dealing with or material things you may have (or lack thereof).

21. Hard-work NEVER goes unnoticed (believe it or not), someone will always recognize it and give you credit for it, trust me.

22. Have fun and do things that make you genuinely happy, because life is too short to do anything BUT things that make you happy.

23. It’s just a bad day/week/month/year, not a bad life. Don’t take a shitty day(s) and make it seem like you have a horrible life. Take whatever’s happened to you on that day(s) and use it to have better days later on.

Thanks for reading!

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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