Year-End Reflection Of 2018

I’m not going to pretend like this is going to be a super motivational post, because let’s be real…..2018 fucking sucked (personally). A lot of shit happened, a lot of shit went wrong and just generally, it wasn’t great.

I like to try and always stay positive and attempt to see the upside of things, but let’s be real, this year was a rough one. From personal stuff with family, to personal mental/internal stuff, to financial stuff, etc., the list can go on and on unfortunately. It’s just been a lot to take in within a year.

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I thought from the beginning that 2018 was going to be an AMAZING year. I swore by it. But, sometimes things, life, etc., just doesn’t go as planned. And if there’s anything that 2018 taught me, it’s that.

However, I must admit that with the bad certainly does come the good (to some extent). In spite of all the things that I briefly mentioned I dealt with this year, there were a few minor blessings as well.

For example, I just recently (2 days ago) hit my goal of wanting to get 100 followers on my blog before the end of 2018, which I now officially have surpassed with a current total of 102 followers (thank you to every single person who’s been following me from beginning until now and even recently started following).

I also made a year at my current job in September, and have worked my ASS off this year to ensure that my bosses, colleagues, etc. know that I am hardworking, reliable, dependent, and trustworthy with any and all work they give me. Which, has led me to recently have not only received a pretty great bonus from my boss, but also just as great of a raise as well!

I also was recently able to pick up a second job, which, although has been EXTREMELY tiring and time-consuming, has been great money-wise for not only paying my bills, but also for a little extra pocket money.

Those are pretty much the “biggest things/accomplishments” that happened for me in 2018. Is that sad? I don’t know, I don’t think so, because you’ve gotta shed some light on the little things that make you feel happy and accomplished just as much as you do the big things sometimes. Giving yourself credit when it’s due.

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With that being said, I also want to bring up how passive I was throughout 2018. Meaning, I was unintentionally super laid back. I let things and people get to me, that I not only should not have, but also I should’ve said more to stick up for myself. I let a lot of behaviors and situations go by that I should not have. I let myself get to such a depressive state in my life without asking and/or getting any sort of help to the point where I felt like I wanted to take my own life. And I just generally didn’t fight and/or push for anything to happen in my life in 2018 BECAUSE of how passive, depressed, and just generally tired I was of life.

These were all things though that, had I taken control of early on, could’ve made ALL the difference. I probably would not be in the position that I am right now, nor would I have been a few months ago.

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Without getting into TOO much detail about it, I just wanted to bring this up to point out that I didn’t make anything happen for myself in 2018. I sat back and attempted to WAIT for things to happen and get done, without realizing that thats not how it works. Sure, I should’ve known that and you hear people tell you that ALL the time, but actually experiencing it for yourself is a WHOLE other level of hurt, anxiety and depression.

It sucks. But, you know what they say, you live and learn.

I’m making a promise to myself to not have a repeat of 2018, in 2019. 2019 is going to be all about making shit happen for myself. I will no longer sit and wait for things to come to me. Whatever happens from here on out, will happen because I want and am making it happen that way.

I’m speaking it into existence (and have been a lot recently if you happen to follow me on social media) that 2019 is going to be THAT year. I don’t typically tend to like odd numbers, BUT, I think and feel like 2019 is going to be a GREAT year for myself, as well as my loved ones. A lot is going to happen and get accomplished, and I can’t wait to see the results slowly start to take place.

As for 2018 as a whole, the only other thing I’ve really got left to say to you is thank you, next….and 2019, I’m comin’ for ya.

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I’m sorry that this post was sort of all over the place, but these were just a few of the thoughts I was having of not only the past year, but also of what’s to come in the future that I wanted to share with you all.

I hope you guys enjoyed this post, and have a very happy and healthy new year with your family, friends, significant others and general loved ones.

Please follow, like share and comment, and I’ll see you guys next year!

Cheers to 2019……!

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-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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My First 2 Tattoo Experiences

Hey Everybody! The title of this post is self-explanatory, but I’m going to be speaking about my overall first experiences of getting tattooed; where I went, what I got, why I got it, and a ton of other things involving that.

Obviously everyone’s experiences are different and will be different, but I’m going to share with you guys how it was for me both times.

I really wanted to be able to document the first time I got tattooed, but it was so in the moment, that I completely forgot and by the time I thought about it, it was over. So, I’m going to be incorporating my first and second one in this.

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Firstly, I just want to start off by saying that I’ve always been interested in tattoos, like the artistic-ness of it, the meanings behind certain ones, etc. BUT, I really never thought I would ever be the type to want and/or get any. For a LONG time, I never even considered it. Like are you crazy?! Going through that pain, inking my body like that and having to literally live with it for the rest of my life!?! Naw, not for me, sorry….

However, I think that drastically changed (obviously lol) in the past year. I would say what really pushed me to get my first one, was when Spencer passed away almost a year ago (my cat who I wrote an entire post about and will leave linked here in case you wanted to check it out). It took me a while to really push myself to go and get it, but I knew that, for myself, I wanted and needed to do it for him.

I was researching like crazy, looking up ideas for what I wanted and trying to plan the entire thing out so it could be perfect. It was about a month after he passed that I settled on what exactly I wanted (which is pictured below).

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I finally ended up getting it on June 16, 2018.

I settled on what I wanted about a month after he passed away, but didn’t actually end up getting it done until about 6-7 months after I settled on it. There’s a variety of reasons for this, but mainly because of the nerves I had about it all.

I actually kind of got lucky because a friend of mine who I’ve literally known since I was a kid, is a tattoo artist, and so once I finally settled on what I wanted, I contacted her and she completely talked me through the whole thing and settled my nerves TREMENDOUSLY. Even on the day of, she was talking me through everything, answered every single question I had from the amount of pain I may be feeling, to the equipment she was using, etc. It was SO comforting and an overall great experience.

The name of the girl I went to is Shamalee Delacruz (her Instagram name is @tatubuny if you live in New York and wanted to check her and her work out, which you guys totally should). She is such a sweet person, and her work is really great. She’s so great at detail and making sure you get EXACTLY what it is you want, which is obviously extremely important when getting a tattoo. So I 100% recommend her if you’re considering getting any sort of tattoo work done.

I obviously spoke about the general meaning of it, as in who it was dedicated to, but to be more “specific”, my first one is just saying that Spencer will always be apart of me, in my heart. As for the placement of that tattoo, I got it on my wrist because it was somewhere that I knew I would always be able to see it. So now, whenever I miss him or anything, I just always look down, see it there and it always weirdly makes me feel better.

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So that was my first tattoo, which I got back in June. For my second one, which I just got done 2 days ago, I went to Shamalee again and got something that was extremely deep in meaning and important to me.

It always feels weird to talk about this one, just because it’s not something that I’m like trying to brag about to people, and I also just don’t generally talk about it much to anyone that isn’t super close to me (although I am trying to get better at being more vocal about it).

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Ultimately, the second one I got has to do with mental health. I’ve briefly spoken about it a few times on my blog before, but for those of you that are new and/or just didn’t know, I suffer from anxiety and depression. It’s something that I think I’ve always sort of dealt with throughout my life, but only recently did it start to get worse and really make me realize how real it is. This is something in my life that I’m probably always going to have to deal with, and if you know me, you know that I’m a fighter. But, when I have bad days, I have REALLY bad days, which I don’t always like to admit because of how intense it is, but the thought of suicide does come to mind every now and than. And I really don’t at all mean to say that light-heartedly, but it’s the truth, and because of that I decided to get this tattoo.

For those of you that don’t know, in literature, a semi-colon is used when an author could’ve ended a sentence, but chose not to. In this case, specifically, the author is myself and the sentence is my life. Something so tiny, yet so meaningful and impactful. So that’s the meaning of the semi-colon itself, as for the birds, I’ve just ALWAYS been obsessed with little bird tattoos for some reason, I think they’re so cute and just add more meaning to most tattoos. With that, a bird usually symbolizes freedom and perspective. See the finished product below.

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Got this one done on Saturday, September 29th.

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For both times, it was the weirdest thing because the days leading up to me actually getting them, I was nervous as hell. But the day of and throughout the entire process, I was strangely calm. Partly I’m sure because of how comfortable Shamalee made me, and I guess the other part is just because I knew how much they both meant to me and how badly I wanted them.

Which now leads me to one of the most important aspects of getting tattooed that most people wonder about….the pain. And rightfully so considering you should know more or less exactly what you’re getting yourself into before doing it. Now, as I mentioned earlier, everyone’s experience is and will be different, which means that everyone’s pain tolerance is different. Personally, being that I had never done anything remotely close to this before, I was pretty much going in blind since I had no form of reference for how much “pain” or not I was going to be in. The place that I got both my tattoos (the wrist area) is supposed to be an extremely sensitive spot for them; as in, it’s typically suppose to be more painful, especially since my second one kind of wraps around my wrist onto my bone. But personally, it really didn’t hurt much at all. It really just felt like hard, repetitive pinching….is that weird? Just me? Okay then….

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Overall, for both of my tattoos, I had two (thankfully) great and easy going experiences and healing processes.

And to be honest, I’m already addicted and planning what I might…..probably…..most likely will be getting next….don’t judge me!! 🌚

Anyway guys, that’s it for this post. Those were my first 2 tattoo experiences. I really hope that you guys enjoyed it. Leave me a comment down below or write to me on social media about what your first tattoo experience(s) were like, I’d love to hear from you about it! 😀

Thanks for reading, and I’ll see you guys in my next one.

*Special thanks again to Shamalee for doing this for me and making me feel super comfortable throughout it all, and for doing exactly what I wanted! As well as Diego for taking these great pictures! ❤ *

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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4 Podcasts to Listen to When You’re Looking For Inspiration

This post is sort of going to be piggybacking off of my last 2 posts.

If you read my 8 Tips to Staying Motivated post a few days ago, you would’ve saw that one of the things I recommended and have been loving doing myself lately is listening to podcasts.

Now, I know that in the day and age that we live in everything is digital, and because of that, kids, people, etc. are more inclined to read and/or listen to something on their phone or tablets then they are to doing it the old fashion way of picking up an actual book or even listening to an actual record, which is why I think listening to podcasts is great.

If you happen to be one of these people, then keep reading…

Podcasts are really similar to eBooks, and are a great way for people to listen to speeches, motivational speakers, some of your favorite celebrities gossiping, etc. It’s pretty much like a radio on your phone haha.

In my ‘8 Tips’ post, I mentioned that recently whenever I’m heading home at night from the gym, I tend to listen to them now. I found a few that seemed really interesting to me, and from there it just kind of snowballed, so I figure I share my favorites with you guys for those of you that may be interested and looking for some extra inspiration in your life.

I found that these podcasts are SO good at giving you the little extra push you may need to push through whatever struggles you may be dealing with at the moment, or if you’re at a stand-still for one reason or another, etc. But, I find that one of the best things about them all is that it’s not pushing or motivating in an annoying, forceful way like jamming the “need” for school and work down your throats; it’s in a way that’s realistic and really makes you think and put things into perspective in your life.

That being said, I’m going to share with you guys the 4 different podcasts that I’ve been LOVING lately, and I’m sure you will too. (*Totally not planned to have 2 of them be from women and 2 from men btw lol*).

  1. Don’t Keep Your Day Job by: Cathy Heller

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You guys…..to say that I’m OBSESSED with this podcast is a complete understatement. I don’t even remember how I came across it, but I’m SO glad that I did. When I first discovered Cathy’s podcast, I literally was on a binge of like a week straight listening to all her recent episodes. They were SO good and so freakin’ interesting. I can’t even tell you guys seriously how inspired I felt after listening to her, specifically, the 2 episodes that I would recommend listening to THE MOST, if any at all, are the ones she did titled “What They Don’t Teach In School, Part 1 and 2.” Those are the episodes that really got me hooked. 1000000% recommend to anyone looking for inspiration and trying to find themselves.

2. Bucci Radio by: Amanda Bucci

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This is a podcast I found because I just love Amanda Bucci in general. Amanda is a fitness and lifestyle entrepreneur. I was actually introduced to her entire platform by Diego a few years ago, when she was primarily focused on fitness and competing. Literally she was my fitness goals guys (and still is). But, what I think is AMAZING about her, is how much she’s expanded not only herself, but her brand waaaay past fitness, into something so much bigger and better now (not to say what she was doing before wasn’t great), into what she is today. AND SHE’S ONLY 24 YEARS OLD!! How crazy, but awesome at the same time. Her entire podcast is dedicated to “igniting your fire” and trying to help you figure out not only what your passionate about it, but also how to actually DO something about that passion. If you haven’t heard of and/or checked it out, I seriously recommend that you do ASAP.

**These next 2 podcasts that I’m going to mention are fairly new to me still, but I still have been really enjoying them so far and inspiring just like the first two do.**

3. This Is Your Life by: Michael Hyatt 

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This is another great show for not only motivating, but also just trying to open your eyes and realize that everything you need for your future is ultimately right in front of you. He teaches how to not just SIMPLY live your life, how to work hard for things that make you happy and proud, how to lead by example and be a GOOD leader at that, and ultimately tips on how to start and create your own personal brand.

4.  And finally….The School of Greatness With Lewis Howes

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Obviously all of the podcasts I’m recommending are intended to inspire,  so in that aspect, this is just like the others. However, they all do it in such similar, yet different ways. Lewis’ podcast is all about speaking on the different types of passions he has in his life, while also covering serious topics like people’s mental well-being, breaking through their fears and how to not just work hard, but work smart. He really makes you question all aspects of certain things, which I don’t know about you guys, but I love to have that happen. I love to be challenged and force myself to really think about something even if it may seem obvious. It stimulates your mind to question things about yourself and the things around you instead of just completely accepting them for what they are.  And because of this (among other things), I strongly recommend that you guys check him and his podcast out ASAP if you haven’t already.

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One of the biggest things I love about all of these podcasts is that like I said earlier, they’re not forceful and annoying motivation to the point where it’s like okay….we get it, shut up. Everything all of these people speak about in each one of their episodes is actually REALLY interesting and engaging.

Plus, although they are all AMAZING at what they do on their shows, it’s not like just them talking the entire time, all the time. They all tend to bring guests onto their show every so often to further prove the points they’re trying to make. And yes, occasionally they will be celebrities, but most times they’re not. Most times it’s real people, that have gone through real shit and have genuinely worked hard at whatever it is they love to do to get to where they are today, and that more than anything (to me) is the most inspirational part of it all.

I know that celebrities usually all have their own stories to share and they tend to go through real-life issues of their own obviously, but personally, I don’t want to hear about any of that. I want to hear about these real people that were really sick or dirt poor and how they never lost faith that things were going to get better for them, and never stopped working towards their goals until they got to where they wanted to be (which includes the hosts of these shows too obviously). And ALL of these podcasts never cease to disappoint in that aspect, which is what makes them my favorite and why I so badly wanted to share them with you guys.

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So there you have it. Hope you guys enjoyed this post and end up checking out some (or all) of the podcasts I recommended! Let me know in the comments or on social media which podcast ended up sparking your interest, OR if you have any of your own to recommend for me to check out. I’d love to hear from you guys about it!

See you guys in my next post!

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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