Life Update: What’s Really Been Going On

Hey guys,

I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe throughout everything that has been going on in the world recently.

Life has been really crazy, and I’m not even just talking about with quarantine anymore…..but that’s a conversation for another day.

I wanted to make this post today to be honest with you guys and let you in on what’s been going on with me recently. I made a YouTube video talking all about it a few days ago which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out.

I wanted to be able to make a blog post talking about it because I know I sort of have a different type of audience here then I do on my other platforms and that parts of my audience would rather read then watch videos on things like this, so here we are.

I know in my previous blog posts I had mentioned how I was really content throughout our time in quarantine and actually really enjoyed it and was getting a ton of work done, but I guess deep down, that wasn’t true at all.

My guess is that although originally I was content in the beginning and okay with being home all this time, the more time I spent at home, the more it started to get to me….

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About a month ago on May 14th, I suffered from what I can only assume was my first panic attack. It was a random Thursday afternoon at about 5pm, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary other than working like I always did, when suddenly I started to feel really weird internally. I started to feel lightheaded and almost like my heart rate was dropping. So, I went into the kitchen to see and talk to my mom in hopes that it would distract me and the feeling would go away, because I figured that I was probably just sitting in front of my computer for too long. When I got up, I felt slightly worse, and I told my mom what I was feeling, that it felt like I could barely breath and like I was going to pass out at any minute (thankfully I didn’t though). We weren’t really sure what was happening so all we did was have me drink really cold water and throw some cold water on my face and neck. After I just walked up and down my driveway to get some air and stretch my legs…..that was the first episode. It went away shortly after that, but it was the  official start of me having anxiety.

The next serious/scary episode was about 3 days later when my mom and I decided to take a little walk to this store nearby our house. Well that “little walk” ended up turning into a 5 mile one when we decided to walk to this Target that’s about 20 minutes more or less away. The walk going was nice, we took our time and just enjoyed it all, but once we actually got to the Target, everything changed…we got there and the line to get in was a little ridiculous, but people were telling us that it was going relatively quick, so we decided to wait about 5-10 minutes on line and see how far we got. As SOON as we got to the back of the line, I immediately started to feel almost exactly how I did on Thursday, and like I was going to pass out. I obviously got very nervous since we were in a very public place and it was just mom and I. Within 2 minutes, I ended up telling my mom that we should just go, so we did. I honestly don’t even know how I managed to get home. The whole walk home was miserable, my chest was tight, I was lightheaded and my right arm started to feel numb-ish. It was all just very scary. We finally ended up getting home, and again, everything ended up being somewhat okay and going away.

The days following this one were on and off…..one day I would feel anxious and uneasy, the next, I was fine. The whole thing was just really scary because who ever wants to feel like they can’t breath, even if it is all mental? The more it happened, the more freaked out and anxious I was throughout the day; constantly feeling nervous, constantly feeling my heart area to make sure that it WAS beating, etc. It was even scarier not knowing WHY any of this was happening. We had our guesses, but we had no way to know for sure.

Due to the circumstances of COVID-19, relatively everything was still closed at the time, and the last thing we wanted to do was go all the way to the hospital with all of this going on, if it wasn’t serious,  AND rack up a ridiculous hospital bill for the check-up. However, the Tuesday following Memorial Day weekend , we were FINALLY able to get an appointment with my primary physician. It was the most exciting and nerve-racking thing. Exciting because I was FINALLY going to find out if something was wrong, but nerve-racking because what if something WAS wrong and serious?

Sure enough, thank GOD, my doctor checked all the important stuff (my heart, lungs, stomach and blood pressure) and everything internally was fine to him. Although he’s not a therapist in any way, shape or form, based off of everything I was telling him that I felt, he basically confirmed what we were all assuming it was, which was stress and anxiety.

As soon as we left the doctor I almost instantly felt a wave of relief. Yes, it still sucked that I was feeling and going through all of these things, but unbelievably relieved to know that it was nothing seriously wrong with me internally. It also almost entirely confirmed what we assumed it was, so we were then able to actually look into things and treatments for anxiety. It gave us some type of clarity.

Ever since than, I’ve been doing research like crazy online, readings books about it, and looking for recommendations for how to help my anxiety.

It’s been a little over a month now that I’ve been dealing with this, and although it can be really scary, there are good and bad days, and I can honestly say that things haven’t been anywhere near as bad as they were when it all started. I think I’m finally getting a handle on this.

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I want to apologize because I almost feel like I lied to you guys about how I was feeling in my previous posts, but it wasn’t my intention. I genuinely felt like I was content and okay with being home working all this time, but deep down like I said, I wasn’t. I guess between quarantine from the virus and everything else going on in the news/world, it really started to get to me.

It got so bad that I couldn’t focus on my work, and I was barely eating and sleeping. Anxiety can be such a scary thing if you don’t know or learn how to control it. It makes you feel like you’re losing yourself and you have no control of getting yourself back.

In my next post, I’m going to be sharing with you guys some of the things that have been helping me cope/ease my mind and anxiety for the past month, so make sure you stay tuned for that.

I hope this post was informative and gave you guys a better sense of where I’ve been and how I’ve really been doing. It’s been really hard, and it’s kind of felt like I’ve lost myself in the past month or so, but everyday I’m working towards getting better, stronger and healthier again, and I can’t wait for the day that I can finally say I’m 100% feeling myself again.

It was also really important for me to share this with you guys in hopes of it possibly inspiring someone else to come out with their story and showing them that they’re not alone. I know that was a major issue for me when this all started was that I felt really emotional and alone, because I could explain it a million different times to a million different people, but them knowing that I’m healthy and never actually experiencing it for themselves, they’ll never really understand. So, if you happen to be someone going through this as well, please feel free to comment below or reach out to me privately so we can talk about it and connect. I would love to hear from you guys about it.

Thanks you guys for reading and following me on this new little journey of mine. I hope you continue to stick around and hopefully see a better me soon.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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5 Books I Want to Read Before Quarantine is Over

Hey guys, happy Monday!

I have a feeling that all this quarantine stuff is slowly but surely coming to end. Here in New York, our ‘stay at home’ order recently got extended to June 6th from May 30th that I believe it originally was.

I know that it seems like a contradiction because our date just got push back and call me overly-optimistic, but it’s just a feeling I’m having.

So, because of this, there are a few things that I’ve been meaning to do before all of this is over and we’re forced to go back to our normal day-to-day routines; one of those things being getting back on top of my reading.

I’ve been slacking a lot recently since I’ve been so focused on the blog, my YT channel, my IG content and now, TikTok haha. It’s not necessarily a bad thing since I have been working and staying on top of everything, but reading has always been just as important to me as all the other things I mentioned and it’s something I really need to get back to.

After all, it is what started my whole love for writing and being creative in the first place, so where would I be without it?

Because of this, I wanted to share with you guys 5 particular books that I’m really excited about hopefully reading before quarantine is officially over. I figure that I share this because I know that I have a ton of followers who are fellow bookworms and who knows, you/they might be interested in reading some of these as well.

So without further adieu…..

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*In no particular order*

  1. How to Win Friends & Influence People by: Dale Carnegie

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An influencer friend of mine actually recommended this book to me. I took her class all about social media, the ins and outs, how to gain a following, create content, etc. and she suggested I read this book because it’s really inspirational and teaches you all but being successful, how to work with people and basically leave your mark on audiences. I’m really excited about reading this one and really hope that it ends up teaching me a lot.

2.  Incomparable by: Nikki & Brie Bella

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If you guys didn’t know, I absolutely LOVE these ladies. I loved watching them wrestle, loved watching them on Total Divas and love watching them now on Total Bellas. They are such strong, empowering and inspirational women. So, when I heard and saw that they came out with a memoir, I was so unbelievably excited. I’ve seen bits and pieces of their stories being shown throughout the TV show, but obviously being able to read something like this is SO different and a lot more raw. It literally just came out and I ordered my copy, so I can’t wait for it to come in so I can finally start it! 😀

3. Crystals: The Modern Guide to Crystal Healing by: Yulia Van Doren Goldirocks 

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If you guys happened to see my YT video about my 2020 vision board (if you haven’t, I will leave it linked here), there was a part in my ‘personal’ goals where I mentioned that I want to learn more about spirituality, and part of that would be to learn about crystals and all of its different types of healing powers. So, I found and got this book that’s supposed to be a very basic guide for all that; breaking down all of the different types of crystals, what they do, how to use and care for them, etc. It’s a starting point and then in the future I could always look for and buy more complex books about it if anything.

4. Visual Reference Guides Mythology by: Philip Wilkinson & Neil Philip 

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This is something that I thought was really cool because it has a ton of like Greek mythology stories and other cultures’ mythology within it as well. I’ve always had an interest in things like this, so I’m really excited to be able to finally read it especially since I’ve kind of had this book for a WHILE.

5. Anything Can Be Healed by: Martin Brofman

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This one sort of goes hand in hand with the crystal healing book because it’s about spirituality and doing things to heal the body naturally. It teaches about utilizing the chakra system as a body/mind interface for effective energetic healing. I’m really excited about being able to learn about this and tap into the deeper things like this of the mind and body.

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I hope that you guys enjoyed this post and possibly got some new book recommendations out of it.

These books are all definitely different from the normal types of books I tend to read, but I’m trying to expand on the things I read and learn about. Plus they all do peak my interests, it’ll just kind of be like watering a plant and watching my interests on these things/topics grow.

Let me know if after each book you guys would want me to do a review on it or something and I will definitely be sure to do that for you! 🙂

Please remember to like this post if you enjoyed it and follow my blog if you haven’t already, and I’ll see you guys in the next one!

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PS: This is my official 100th blog post!! How crazy and cool haha. I just thought it was fun and worth mentioning.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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One Lesson I Learned This Past Month

Hey guys and happy Sunday!

Holy crap, I honestly can’t believe it’s Sunday again AND that we’re already in May…where the heck did the time go?! It’s flying by, which I still haven’t decided yet if that’s a good or bad thing.

But, for today’s post I wanted to talk to you about something I’ve learned throughout this past month while in quarantine.

There’s actually a lot of different things that I can say in this post about the things I’ve learned recently, but if I had to choose one, and settle on the MAIN thing, it would be PATIENCE.

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PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE

I don’t think I ever fully knew/understood what that phrase really meant until this whole situation started and I had no choice but to learn the hard way about it.

Wouldn’t you guys agree?

I mean think about it, literally EVERYTHING in this situation requires patience, like it or not.

  • Patience to wait, know and understand the severity of the situation.
  • Patience about whether or not you’re going to still have a job during and even after all of this is over.
  • Patience for all of our stimulus checks to finally hit our accounts and/or unemployment (if you qualified for both/either).
  • Patience for the lines to get in and out of relatively ANY store to get whatever it is you may need.
  • Patience for how long this is all going to last.
  • Patience for your kids’ virtual learning.
  • Patience for constantly being around the same few people 24/7 whether that’s a significant other, your kids, roommates, etc. that you may not normally be used to being around THIS much.

The list could really go on and on.

The point is that, like I said, like it or not we’ve all had to adapt and be patient during this time. I know that for me personally, it’s been a month and a half in quarantine thus far and it’s definitely been tough at times because I’m so used to being on the go (as I’m sure a lot of you guys can relate to as well).

This is our new ‘norm’ for the time being, so we really have no choice but to suck it up, be patient , make the best of it somehow and wait for the day (hopefully soon) that this is all over and behind us.

Things are definitely tough right now for everybody and I’m sure people are starting to, if not already been, antsy about it all, but I have no doubt that this is all coming to an end soon and we’ll be able to get back to reality. We’ve just got to continue to be patient as doctors, nurses and everyone else in between that have been helping to get the situation under control keep doing their thing, as well as us continuing to do our part in all of this (i.e., Social distancing, wearing masks WHEN NEEDED, washing our hands, etc.).

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What’s something that YOU guys learned this past month? I would love to hear from you guys about it and discuss it!

I hope you guys enjoyed this post, and if you did please always remember to drop a like on it and follow me for more posts if you aren’t already!

I hope you guys have a great rest of the weekend. It’s been high 70s here in New York so if you live here, try to get out and enjoy the weather a little while still being protected and practicing social distancing!

BTW, I just OFFICIALLY joined the TikTok community!! Haha, so if you have TikTok and are interested in keeping up with me there and watching some funny little videos, definitely be sure to follow me! My @ is always down below along with the rest of my social media accounts to stay connected with me! 🙂

Until my next post….

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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