Year-End Reflection Of 2018

I’m not going to pretend like this is going to be a super motivational post, because let’s be real…..2018 fucking sucked (personally). A lot of shit happened, a lot of shit went wrong and just generally, it wasn’t great.

I like to try and always stay positive and attempt to see the upside of things, but let’s be real, this year was a rough one. From personal stuff with family, to personal mental/internal stuff, to financial stuff, etc., the list can go on and on unfortunately. It’s just been a lot to take in within a year.

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I thought from the beginning that 2018 was going to be an AMAZING year. I swore by it. But, sometimes things, life, etc., just doesn’t go as planned. And if there’s anything that 2018 taught me, it’s that.

However, I must admit that with the bad certainly does come the good (to some extent). In spite of all the things that I briefly mentioned I dealt with this year, there were a few minor blessings as well.

For example, I just recently (2 days ago) hit my goal of wanting to get 100 followers on my blog before the end of 2018, which I now officially have surpassed with a current total of 102 followers (thank you to every single person who’s been following me from beginning until now and even recently started following).

I also made a year at my current job in September, and have worked my ASS off this year to ensure that my bosses, colleagues, etc. know that I am hardworking, reliable, dependent, and trustworthy with any and all work they give me. Which, has led me to recently have not only received a pretty great bonus from my boss, but also just as great of a raise as well!

I also was recently able to pick up a second job, which, although has been EXTREMELY tiring and time-consuming, has been great money-wise for not only paying my bills, but also for a little extra pocket money.

Those are pretty much the “biggest things/accomplishments” that happened for me in 2018. Is that sad? I don’t know, I don’t think so, because you’ve gotta shed some light on the little things that make you feel happy and accomplished just as much as you do the big things sometimes. Giving yourself credit when it’s due.

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With that being said, I also want to bring up how passive I was throughout 2018. Meaning, I was unintentionally super laid back. I let things and people get to me, that I not only should not have, but also I should’ve said more to stick up for myself. I let a lot of behaviors and situations go by that I should not have. I let myself get to such a depressive state in my life without asking and/or getting any sort of help to the point where I felt like I wanted to take my own life. And I just generally didn’t fight and/or push for anything to happen in my life in 2018 BECAUSE of how passive, depressed, and just generally tired I was of life.

These were all things though that, had I taken control of early on, could’ve made ALL the difference. I probably would not be in the position that I am right now, nor would I have been a few months ago.

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Without getting into TOO much detail about it, I just wanted to bring this up to point out that I didn’t make anything happen for myself in 2018. I sat back and attempted to WAIT for things to happen and get done, without realizing that thats not how it works. Sure, I should’ve known that and you hear people tell you that ALL the time, but actually experiencing it for yourself is a WHOLE other level of hurt, anxiety and depression.

It sucks. But, you know what they say, you live and learn.

I’m making a promise to myself to not have a repeat of 2018, in 2019. 2019 is going to be all about making shit happen for myself. I will no longer sit and wait for things to come to me. Whatever happens from here on out, will happen because I want and am making it happen that way.

I’m speaking it into existence (and have been a lot recently if you happen to follow me on social media) that 2019 is going to be THAT year. I don’t typically tend to like odd numbers, BUT, I think and feel like 2019 is going to be a GREAT year for myself, as well as my loved ones. A lot is going to happen and get accomplished, and I can’t wait to see the results slowly start to take place.

As for 2018 as a whole, the only other thing I’ve really got left to say to you is thank you, next….and 2019, I’m comin’ for ya.

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I’m sorry that this post was sort of all over the place, but these were just a few of the thoughts I was having of not only the past year, but also of what’s to come in the future that I wanted to share with you all.

I hope you guys enjoyed this post, and have a very happy and healthy new year with your family, friends, significant others and general loved ones.

Please follow, like share and comment, and I’ll see you guys next year!

Cheers to 2019……!

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-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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Meeting My Favorite Author For The First Time!!

If you happen to follow me on social media (which if you don’t, you totally should…all my info for that is always left at the end of my posts), you would have seen that this past Tuesday, October 16th, was SUCH an exciting day for me.

I got to meet my favorite author and pretty much the person who is responsible for inspiring me to want to write as more than just a hobby.

The author I’m referring to is Nicholas Sparks, who I’m sure a lot of you are familiar with his work. He is the author who wrote best-sellers like The Notebook, A Walk To Remember, Dear John, The Last Song and SO many others…many of which were later turned into films.

Since it’s still so fresh, and I’m still really excited about it, I thought it would be fun (like most other things that I try to do) and share my entire experience of it with you guys!

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The Waiting Process

I had literally been planning for that day for about 2-3 months in advance since I first heard about the event happening.

It was a big deal, I was SO excited.

I had actually taken off from work to be able to go to it, because I didn’t want to risk missing anything from the event.

So, I made sure to wake up extra early (at about 5-6 am I believe), get ready as fast as I could (doing my hair, makeup in about half hour which I’m PRETTY sure is record breaking time) and rushing out the door. I managed to get to the 14th Street (Union Square) Barnes & Noble store by 8 o’clock. The doors didn’t open until 9 though, so I had (along with many others) to wait outside for an hour.

Personally, although it was REALLY cold that morning, it didn’t feel like all that long of a wait (thank god for social media and YouTube).

Once the doors opened at 9 you were directed to the main cashiers to be able to purchase the book and receive your wristband for the event. After getting both, you had the option of either coming back later when the event started at 12:30 OR just hanging out in the store until it was time.

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I was still freezing from being outside AND starving, so once I got my book and wristband, I quickly made my way upstairs to the Starbucks to get my coffee and something to eat. After getting those, I thought I was being “smart” by running upstairs to get to the floor that the event was going to be at so that I could secure my good seat…I quickly realized once I got up there that a TON of other people had the same idea as me 😂. It was all good though because I still managed to be pretty close up, in like the 3rd row.

By the time I actually got myself settled with my seat and other things, it was only about 10am, so I still had about 2 and a half hours to kill before the event started. Again, the waiting really wasn’t so bad for me honestly. In that time I was able to watch YouTube videos, read the synopsis of the book and author’s note, and even walked around the entire store and managed to come out with 4 extra books then what was originally intended. Needless to say I was very entertained lol.

While I was clearly having the best time EVER wandering around my favorite store and finding more and more books for me to buy by the second, before I knew it it was 12:30 and the event was about to start.

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The Event

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The event itself was pretty cool and fun. The events coordinator for the store introduced Nicholas Sparks a little bit, then had him come up on stage to say a few words before the meet and greet/book signing actually started.

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When he finally came up, he spoke a little bit about his previous books and what led him to write this one specifically (the name of his book is Every Breath if I didn’t already mention that). He spoke about a few key points in this specific book like the characters, their backgrounds, what inspired certain details in the book and a ton of other things that I don’t want to get TOO detailed about because I don’t want to spoil anything. He also took a few questions from the audience which I thought was really nice because a lot of people don’t do that.

I even got to ask and have him answer a question!

I’m one of those people that gets SO nervous about things like that and second guesses whether or not I actually want to and/or should, even if I really DO want to. Anxiety freakin’ sucks man. BUT, I literally had to tell myself to get over myself and just ask my question because how often am I ever going to get an opportunity like this again, ESPECIALLY with my favorite author?

So that’s what I did, I got up the courage to raise my hand to ask a question, and sure enough…he picked me! 😄 My question was, “What advice would you give to aspiring writers like myself who can only hope to be half as successful of an author that you are one day?”

He answered by saying “Speaking for myself, I love to read, so you of course have to read a lot. But you know what else I think helps me? TV and movies, and you know why? Because they’re stories. And if you’re talking about TV, every 8 minutes they kind of have to end on a cliff hanger when a commercial is coming because they have to keep you tuned in. Well that’s very handy in writing as well whenever you end another chapter, because you have to end in a way to make them, your readers, want to turn that next page. So there’s lessons to be learned from any form of good story. So you have to read, learn to value stories, and to see how stories tick and wind, and practice honing reasons why one book is better than another.”

I paraphrased a lot of what he said obviously, otherwise I could’ve gone on forever with his response, but that was pretty much the gist of it.

After he answered my question was when the meet and greets and book signing actually started.

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Meeting Nicholas Sparks Officially

As if simply asking him a question from afar wasn’t nerve-wrecking enough, I was about to finally meet him officially too!!

The whole process went relatively quick, I mean obviously right? There were over a hundred + people there waiting to meet him and get their book signed so of course he had to keep the line moving.

But regardless of the fact that they (his people?) were trying to keep the line moving smoothly and relatively quick, I thought it was really cool and interesting to see the interaction he had with each of his fans. He was really friendly and managed to go out of his way to speak to his fans individually as much as he could, and was even willing to sign as many copies of his book as you bought.

At one point I even saw that there was this girl who had brought every single book she had of his in hopes of getting them all signed by him, and he actually did it. I don’t know, maybe it’s just me, but I just think little things like that says a lot about a person/celebrity (in a good way), because he could’ve easily said no since there were so many people waiting, but he still made the time to do it in between signing his recent book for others.

Anyway, once my time came up, I was SO nervous. I didn’t actually know what to say to him, I wanted to make sure the picture(s) came out nice and a million other things were going through my mind too.

Ultimately, I actually got a couple of good shots of our interaction (see some of them below) and as for what I said to him, although it came out all jumbled up and I’m sure he didn’t understand half of it, I told him that he was my absolute favorite author and one of the main reasons that I decided to take my writing more seriously and hopefully become a successful author one day like he is. He said thank you so much, encouraged me to always keep trying and writing, gave me my signed book and I was on my way.

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Overall, although it wasn’t the ‘longest encounter’ ever, generally, it was a really great,  and very much worth it experience.

I don’t typically tend to do things like go to events like this, ESPECIALLY by myself because of my anxiety, so that alone was a BIG deal for me. Being able to step out of my comfort-zone to meet my favorite author, get to ask him a REALLY important question (to me anyway), get my book signed by him AND get a few pictures with him…what better?! He was also really nice about it all which made it even better.

I can’t even tell you guys how inspired and motivated I felt leaving the event that day, like I had so many different ideas for the blog going through my mind, so many things I wanted to start working on with my writing, etc. It made me really excited for not only my future, but my WRITING in the future. I’ve got some really exciting things coming soon for you guys and I can’t wait for you to see them.

I really hope you guys enjoyed this post. Thanks so much for reading, please like, share and follow if you aren’t already, and I’ll see you guys in the next one! 😊

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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