What’s Been Going On Lately?

Hey Guys,

It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these spur of the moment, impromptu, what’s going on with me lately, type posts.

I figure today could be one of those posts because I’ve got SO much stuff running through my mind at the moment that I wanted to share a bit with you guys, so I guess that’s what I’m going to be doing.

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So, where to begin?….

I guess I can start off with the way I’ve been feeling since we’ve gotten back from our trip.

The first couple of days were genuinely tough, not only because of the jet-lag that I was dealing with, but also because of the vacation withdrawals I was going through.

Vacation withdrawals are a VERY real thing; some people take it serious and some just brush it off because they know that they’ve enjoyed their time during the vacation, and now it’s over, and that’s okay. But for me, it REALLY sucked when it was over.

Why?

I guess because it was the first trip I had gone on in SUCH a long time, I was planning it for SO long and it was the first trip that I had ever completely paid for and planned on my own. We had such an amazing time and were so care-free while over there, it was great.

And then we came back to reality and went back to our normal routines, which is fine because that’s what’s supposed to happen, but it made me realize that I don’t really like my normal routine, and I know I can be doing SO much more.

I went back to working both jobs that take up AT LEAST 75% of my time most days, which I’m VERY grateful to have because some people aren’t as lucky, BUT neither of them are what I REALLY want to be doing…

It left me thinking a lot lately about why I’m giving so much of my time and energy to these things that leave me with little to no free-time for myself to be working on the things that actually matter to me? Obviously I need to work, and obviously I need money. However, why continue to give all this time and energy to these things that are in no way, shape, or form adding real meaning to my life nor my career??

*I’m predominantly referring to my second job, not my primary one, btw.*

Doing this, I’ve quickly realized, is actually what’s sucking the energy, motivation and creativity away from me. It’s leaving me exhausted all of the time, and is what’s forcing me to have lack of motivation to do anything but rest really.

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My writing and blog are SO important to me, and because of all this, it’s caused me to have writer’s block more so than what I normally would have. I know the type of things I want to write and talk about, but I’ve been second guessing myself SO much recently and don’t actually know or feel like they’re interesting enough to publish on my site.

I’m such a perfectionist and have such high expectations for myself that it’s hard for me to actually put myself and my writing out there sometimes when I don’t feel like it’s my best, and this just adds on to it since I feel like I’m not really giving it my all.

I mean, who wants to post just to post? Not me.

I want to make sure that if I’m posting and putting myself out there, it’s because I’m giving you guys my best.

I’m also well-aware that I’ve got no one to blame but myself for this, because I’m the one who chose to pick up a second job, and money-wise it’s been okay, but at what cost?

I’m past the point of doing these things and jobs that don’t mean much to me. I want and need to start focusing more on finding things that make me happy and continue to be an asset to my life as well as my creativity.

I want to be happy doing the work that I am, and although I was content with these things, jobs, etc. for a while, I’m realizing more and more that it’s time to take a step back from all of that (while being smart about it obviously), and really begin to look for and do work in the specific field that I want.

That being said, I’m making the executive decision to make some big changes in my life in the coming weeks/months.

I don’t know exactly what all of them will be and how I’m going to go about them, but even if I did, I don’t think it would be the best and/or smartest thing to do to tell you guys them just yet (I’m sort of superstitious in that sense). Once they become more final, I will be sure to share them with you guys as much as I can and bring you guys along in my journey as I’ve always promised that I would!!

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On a separate and somewhat more POSITIVE note, I’ve really been trying my best since coming back to keep myself as busy as possible with the fun and more creative stuff that I like to do like with my blog, planning other trips/events and shooting more content for my Instagram.

I told myself (as well as Diego since he is my photographer) that I want and need to be more consistent when it comes to my content on Instagram. Social media isn’t everything, but it is and I think always will be a BIG portion of where my following comes from, so it is very much true what people tend to say, that consistency IS key. So there’s that.

I’ve also seriously been considering more and more recently creating a YouTube channel.

This really isn’t anything new and is actually something I’ve been saying I want to try doing for a while now, but I don’t know….lately I’ve been watching a TON of different videos which has been inspiring me more and more to want to finally do it.

I need to figure a few more things out as far as how I’m going to have the separation between creating enjoyable content for you guys both for my blog here and on the channel, but let’s see…….LeoGirl could be coming to YouTube soon, who knows? ๐Ÿ˜ stay tuned for that.

And finally, Diego and I have a few things coming up soon that are pretty exciting. Nothing that’s too through the roof and extravagant, but a few things that are really fun and exciting for us that I can’t wait for you guys to see, INCLUDING a very possible trip for my own birthday in August…..๐Ÿคช, it’s still in the works, but remember what I told you guys, when I really want and/or put my mind to something, I will ALWAYS find a way to make it happen ๐Ÿ˜‡.

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I’m really trying to remain positive because I know all of this that I’ve been feeling lately is only temporary, but I wanted to share it with you guys in hopes that it’ll show you if you’re feeling the same way at all (about any of these things), that you are not alone.

It’s a sucky feeling to have in the moment, but unfortunately that’s life, and it happens. The only thing we can do is try to think ahead and hope that we can find solutions to these things and/or have things to look forward to before it gets us down.

Regardless, I hope you guys enjoyed this post. Please like, share, follow and comment, and I’ll see you guys in my next one.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl โค

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To The Lost Minds Out There Still Trying To Figure It Out ๐Ÿ’ญ๐Ÿšถ๐Ÿป๐Ÿšถ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

Fear of the unknown is a fear that can truly scar a person’s mind and well-being. Feeling lost, not knowing what the next move is going to be, what you want to do in the future, or fear of being stuck in the same daily routine and having no sense of success or prosperity in whatever it is you may be doing.

Today’s post is going to be for all of my fellow high school, college, and post-college kids. Those of you who may be feeling really lost right now because you feel as though you have no idea where your life is headed.

We’re at a point in our lives, and an age, where it feels like we should have everything, if not most of it, already figured out.

High Schoolers: Ya’ll are supposed to be making, or starting to make, big decisions in your life about college; picking the right schools, figuring out what you want to major in, whether or not you should stay close to home or get the hell away from it, etc.

College Students: You’re pretty much considered an adult already; you should be using this time to figure out the more “important” things in your life than just partying and hanging out all the time (or so people assume this is all you do).

Post-College kids: People think/assume that we definitely must already have everything figured out; where we’re going to work, relationships, where we’ll live, and pretty much just have our whole lives mapped out in front of us already.

ALL OF THESE EXPECTATIONS ARE UNFAIR AND UNREALISTIC!!!!ย 

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It’s because of the society we live in today and how the media tends to portray all of these people and things, that forces us and the people around us to have these unrealistic expectations of “having it all figured out.”

Not everybody is a celebrity or general public figure. Not everybody will have everything figured out, planned, and set for the remainder of their lives by the age of 17-18 (A.K.A. the Kylie Jenners and Justin Biebers of the world). And if you are one of those people who this has happened to, congratulations, that must be really great for you; but for those of you who don’t, that is perfectly okay too.

 

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This is not the point of your lives where you HAVE to have everything figured out. This is the point of your lives where you SHOULD be having fun, enjoying life and making mistakes along the way. We’re young, this is the point of our lives where we’re just starting to figure it all out, and you know what? It’s going to take a while. It may take a year, it may take five years, but that’s okay because these things take time.

I know so many people who are currently struggling at the moment to figure out what the next move in their lives should be. They feel like their not going anywhere with their lives and like they could be doing so much more, and they’re so hard on themselves because of it. That may be true (that you could be doing so much more), but take your time and figure it out as you go along.

Yes, it’s fine to have a plan for yourself and dreams, but keep in minds things can/will change, that’s inevitable, and you could end up on a completely different path for yourself than what you originally envisioned.

I don’t have it all figured out, sure I have a plan for myself but I’m always prepared for it to change, whether in the smallest or biggest way; it happens. You just have to remember that it’s all part of life’s process, and we have to learn to trust the process. But don’t beat yourself up over not having it all figured out, and as a result, you rush the process and just settle for whatever first comes up.

NEVER SETTLE!!ย Yes, of course it’s fine to be realistic for some, if not many, of these decisions you would make, but I always tell people that have spoken to me about their fears for this to at least try going for the things that you love to do first. Try it out, see how you feel about it, and if that doesn’t work out then that’s okay, but at least you would be able to say that you tried it out, and then moved on to something else.

Try a million different things and see which one, or few, work for you. Replace fear of the unknown with curiosity and excitement! Screw what the media and society in general thinks and tries to categorize as “the norm,” do what makes YOU happy and take your time doing it, because at the end of the day it’s your life and you do what you think is best for YOU. Not what you think other people want for you or will accept. Don’t be afraid to take risks, don’t be afraid of getting judged by fellow family/friends, who cares what they have to say or think. People are going to talk regardless if you’re doing good or bad, so may as well do what you want anyway.

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Don’t feel rushed to figure everything out, take your time and really figure out what works for you and what doesn’t. But also, don’t use you feeling lost or the fear of the unknown as an excuse to not do anything at all. You have to be helping yourself figure it out in some type of way; set aside a certain amount of time throughout the day to really sit down and figure out your interests/hobbies, which you like the most, and which you could see yourself getting far with in a career. No one’s going to do that for you, especially since nobody knows you better than you.

You got this, you’ll figure everything out eventually. Take it step by step, day by day. Don’t rush, take your time, and everything will work itself out for the best. It’ll all happen at its own time and pace.

That’s all I’ve got for today, hope you guys enjoyed this post, and until next time!

 

-Xoxo Leo Girl<3