Life Update: What’s Really Been Going On

Hey guys,

I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe throughout everything that has been going on in the world recently.

Life has been really crazy, and I’m not even just talking about with quarantine anymore…..but that’s a conversation for another day.

I wanted to make this post today to be honest with you guys and let you in on what’s been going on with me recently. I made a YouTube video talking all about it a few days ago which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out.

I wanted to be able to make a blog post talking about it because I know I sort of have a different type of audience here then I do on my other platforms and that parts of my audience would rather read then watch videos on things like this, so here we are.

I know in my previous blog posts I had mentioned how I was really content throughout our time in quarantine and actually really enjoyed it and was getting a ton of work done, but I guess deep down, that wasn’t true at all.

My guess is that although originally I was content in the beginning and okay with being home all this time, the more time I spent at home, the more it started to get to me….

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About a month ago on May 14th, I suffered from what I can only assume was my first panic attack. It was a random Thursday afternoon at about 5pm, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary other than working like I always did, when suddenly I started to feel really weird internally. I started to feel lightheaded and almost like my heart rate was dropping. So, I went into the kitchen to see and talk to my mom in hopes that it would distract me and the feeling would go away, because I figured that I was probably just sitting in front of my computer for too long. When I got up, I felt slightly worse, and I told my mom what I was feeling, that it felt like I could barely breath and like I was going to pass out at any minute (thankfully I didn’t though). We weren’t really sure what was happening so all we did was have me drink really cold water and throw some cold water on my face and neck. After I just walked up and down my driveway to get some air and stretch my legs…..that was the first episode. It went away shortly after that, but it was the  official start of me having anxiety.

The next serious/scary episode was about 3 days later when my mom and I decided to take a little walk to this store nearby our house. Well that “little walk” ended up turning into a 5 mile one when we decided to walk to this Target that’s about 20 minutes more or less away. The walk going was nice, we took our time and just enjoyed it all, but once we actually got to the Target, everything changed…we got there and the line to get in was a little ridiculous, but people were telling us that it was going relatively quick, so we decided to wait about 5-10 minutes on line and see how far we got. As SOON as we got to the back of the line, I immediately started to feel almost exactly how I did on Thursday, and like I was going to pass out. I obviously got very nervous since we were in a very public place and it was just mom and I. Within 2 minutes, I ended up telling my mom that we should just go, so we did. I honestly don’t even know how I managed to get home. The whole walk home was miserable, my chest was tight, I was lightheaded and my right arm started to feel numb-ish. It was all just very scary. We finally ended up getting home, and again, everything ended up being somewhat okay and going away.

The days following this one were on and off…..one day I would feel anxious and uneasy, the next, I was fine. The whole thing was just really scary because who ever wants to feel like they can’t breath, even if it is all mental? The more it happened, the more freaked out and anxious I was throughout the day; constantly feeling nervous, constantly feeling my heart area to make sure that it WAS beating, etc. It was even scarier not knowing WHY any of this was happening. We had our guesses, but we had no way to know for sure.

Due to the circumstances of COVID-19, relatively everything was still closed at the time, and the last thing we wanted to do was go all the way to the hospital with all of this going on, if it wasn’t serious,  AND rack up a ridiculous hospital bill for the check-up. However, the Tuesday following Memorial Day weekend , we were FINALLY able to get an appointment with my primary physician. It was the most exciting and nerve-racking thing. Exciting because I was FINALLY going to find out if something was wrong, but nerve-racking because what if something WAS wrong and serious?

Sure enough, thank GOD, my doctor checked all the important stuff (my heart, lungs, stomach and blood pressure) and everything internally was fine to him. Although he’s not a therapist in any way, shape or form, based off of everything I was telling him that I felt, he basically confirmed what we were all assuming it was, which was stress and anxiety.

As soon as we left the doctor I almost instantly felt a wave of relief. Yes, it still sucked that I was feeling and going through all of these things, but unbelievably relieved to know that it was nothing seriously wrong with me internally. It also almost entirely confirmed what we assumed it was, so we were then able to actually look into things and treatments for anxiety. It gave us some type of clarity.

Ever since than, I’ve been doing research like crazy online, readings books about it, and looking for recommendations for how to help my anxiety.

It’s been a little over a month now that I’ve been dealing with this, and although it can be really scary, there are good and bad days, and I can honestly say that things haven’t been anywhere near as bad as they were when it all started. I think I’m finally getting a handle on this.

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I want to apologize because I almost feel like I lied to you guys about how I was feeling in my previous posts, but it wasn’t my intention. I genuinely felt like I was content and okay with being home working all this time, but deep down like I said, I wasn’t. I guess between quarantine from the virus and everything else going on in the news/world, it really started to get to me.

It got so bad that I couldn’t focus on my work, and I was barely eating and sleeping. Anxiety can be such a scary thing if you don’t know or learn how to control it. It makes you feel like you’re losing yourself and you have no control of getting yourself back.

In my next post, I’m going to be sharing with you guys some of the things that have been helping me cope/ease my mind and anxiety for the past month, so make sure you stay tuned for that.

I hope this post was informative and gave you guys a better sense of where I’ve been and how I’ve really been doing. It’s been really hard, and it’s kind of felt like I’ve lost myself in the past month or so, but everyday I’m working towards getting better, stronger and healthier again, and I can’t wait for the day that I can finally say I’m 100% feeling myself again.

It was also really important for me to share this with you guys in hopes of it possibly inspiring someone else to come out with their story and showing them that they’re not alone. I know that was a major issue for me when this all started was that I felt really emotional and alone, because I could explain it a million different times to a million different people, but them knowing that I’m healthy and never actually experiencing it for themselves, they’ll never really understand. So, if you happen to be someone going through this as well, please feel free to comment below or reach out to me privately so we can talk about it and connect. I would love to hear from you guys about it.

Thanks you guys for reading and following me on this new little journey of mine. I hope you continue to stick around and hopefully see a better me soon.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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Making The Most Out of a Bad Situation

Hey guys, how’s everything going?

I hope that you all are doing well and staying healthy and safe in the comforts of your own homes with your families, significant others, etc.

For today’s post I wanted to talk a little bit about making the best out of a bad situation, which I think we can ALL agree that we’re kind of in right now with the whole “quarantine” stuff going on.

I did a similar post to this about 2 years ago (which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out), and as I just mentioned, given the circumstances of where we all are right now and what’s going on in the world, I thought it was important to re-create it to some extent.

It’s awful, it’s annoying and it REALLY sucks, but in this very moment, we unfortunately cannot do much to change the ways things are other than following what medical experts and our elected officials are telling us to do which is to STAY INSIDE. Don’t go out. Don’t come into contact with too many people at a time. And try to be as smart about all this (as far as stocking up on food and necessities) as possible.

I’m not saying it’s going to be easy because it’s definitely not, but I can only continue to hope and pray that by doing all of this and following the “rules” that these officials are giving us, that it’s going to make things better with each day that passes.

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Since all of this is so out of our hands and up in the air, the only thing I think we can REALLY do at this point is try to stay as busy, productive and distracted as possible while we’re stuck at home.

I for one am definitely the type that cannot stay still. Those of you that know me and/or follow me on social media know that I am always on the go, always have something going on or that I’m working on and typically tend to go stir crazy being stuck at home for more than just a day. However, under the circumstances, I don’t exactly have a choice. I/we are going to be at home for a LONG time. That being said, I’ve put together the below list of things that I plan on doing throughout this time in quarantine (aside from working lol), that also may peak your interest while being at home moving forward.

Things to do:

  • The first thing I personally am going to do is genuinely try to enjoy these first few days I’m home and off. Let’s get it out of our system whether it’s just the first day or first three. Personally I know these days are well deserved off for me, as I’m sure it’s the same for you guys as well. I’m saying to enjoy them as best you can and do nothing right off the back because realistically, when are we ever really going to get a chance like this again? Being at home, doing relatively nothing but relaxing and (more or less) not really having a care in the world. I don’t know about you guys, but I personally don’t get too many days like that in my day-to-day routine.
  • Start a new book or book series (i.e., the Twilight series, Harry Potter series, Hunger Games, Pretty Little Liars series, etc.). Something that will take you a while to get through.
  • Find and start a new TV series (or movie collection). With all of the different streaming services in the world today, it should not be difficult to find SOMETHING to watch and get into, even if you may not have cable.
  • Get into listening to Podcasts. People suggest this a lot, and when I first heard of that I was definitely like ehh, but then I started looking into it myself and finding certain ones that really peaked my interest and I got into it more and more. I would listen to them on the train going and/or coming from work. Walking home. I even used to listen to it as I was doing cardio sometimes. There are some really great and inspirational ones with amazing vibes within them (I have an entire post dedicated to my favorite ones which I’ll leave linked here if you guys want to check it out).
  • Practice Self-Care. There is no better time then right now to be able to practice self-care whether that’s taking care of your skin more regularly, giving yourself a mani/pedi, meditating, practicing yoga, etc. Take care of yourself now more than ever.
  • Home workouts. This one is SO important (for me personally anyway). One of the biggest disappointments I’ve had thus far throughout all of this is the fact that every single gym in New York is closed right now and I have no way of being able to strength train at the moment anymore. So, because of that I need to get a little creative and start to come up with a home workout routine because who knows how long I/we are going to be stuck home, but either way, summer is approaching so I’m still trying to have that ‘summer body’ mentality in mind and stay in shape.
  • Teach yourself how to cook/bake something new (or several new things). I’m actually kind of REALLY looking forward to this because I used to be so in love with the idea of cooking and baking when I was younger, I would always find and save recipes for my mom and I to be able to try making together (which we did a few times). But, as I got older, I started being more on the go and spending less time at home, which prompted me to never have time for making stuff for myself, so since I still live at home with my parents at the moment, whenever I get home at night my mom usually is the one to cook and leave stuff for me on the side. I know how to make a few things here and there, but I’m excited to hopefully take some more time out to learn how to make more meals for myself.
  • Spring cleaning!! This one is pretty big for me too because I’ve been saying for a while now that I want and need to take the time to just stay home, go through all of my clothes and what not and get rid of anything/everything that I don’t want or use anymore. SO I will 1000000% be taking advantage of this time home and finally be siting down to do that at some point. Out with the old, in with the new!!
  • Clean up and organize the pictures/videos on your phone. Since I’ve been taking my blogging and Instagram content more seriously in recent months, I’ve been taking SO many pictures. But because I end up taking so many, after I take the one or 2 that I end up using to post, I end up leaving all of the rest just kind of sitting in my camera roll from each individual shoot so there is a LOT of build in there at the moment. It is a must that I do a bit of spring cleaning in my camera roll throughout this time as well haha.
  • For my creators out there, take this time to try and plan (and execute if possible) new content!! It can be so difficult to plan out content sometimes, especially when you throw in having a 9-5, going to the gym early in the morning or right after work, balancing a relationship, friends, a home life, etc. Now is the PERFECT time to try planning out new content (whether it’s Instagram, YouTube, blog posts, etc.) for when we finally come out of quarantine. But also, try creating new content. It can be difficult because there’s only so much you can do at home, but this is the time to really try getting creative and putting things together for your personal brand or whatever you may be working on/towards.
  • and finally, take this time to RESEARCH and EDUCATE yourselves (as I obviously will myself) on all of the serious stuff going on in the world right now. Although it’s all the media seems to be talking about at the moment, I promise you that there is SO many other things going on in the world OTHER than the virus. DON’T listen to everything that news outlets and the media has to say, do your own research and help yourself understand all of this whether it’s with the virus, the financial repercussions that may or may not come out of this or all of the employment stuff going on and that will happen after all of this is over. Yes, it can be very scary and/or nerve-wrecking to read a lot of what’s going on or going to happen, but I personally would rather educate myself and somehow be prepared for what’s to come then go in blind and not know or understand half of what’s going on.

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I hope you guys enjoyed this post and that it genuinely was helpful to you in some way, shape or form. Things are SO difficult right now, but try using this time to take a step back from all your normal responsibilities for a little bit, relax, recharge and come back better then ever. Usually the new year is a time to really “start all over” and “start fresh,” but maybe THIS is what will be our fresh start.

This is the time to take advantage of all the free time we’re going to have in the coming days/weeks and do all of those things that we typically tend to put in the back burner because we “don’t have time.” Time is all we really have right now.

So on that note, stay productive. Stay inside. Stay healthy. Stay safe and I will see you guys in my next post.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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