What’s Been Going On Lately?

Hey Guys,

It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these spur of the moment, impromptu, what’s going on with me lately, type posts.

I figure today could be one of those posts because I’ve got SO much stuff running through my mind at the moment that I wanted to share a bit with you guys, so I guess that’s what I’m going to be doing.

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So, where to begin?….

I guess I can start off with the way I’ve been feeling since we’ve gotten back from our trip.

The first couple of days were genuinely tough, not only because of the jet-lag that I was dealing with, but also because of the vacation withdrawals I was going through.

Vacation withdrawals are a VERY real thing; some people take it serious and some just brush it off because they know that they’ve enjoyed their time during the vacation, and now it’s over, and that’s okay. But for me, it REALLY sucked when it was over.

Why?

I guess because it was the first trip I had gone on in SUCH a long time, I was planning it for SO long and it was the first trip that I had ever completely paid for and planned on my own. We had such an amazing time and were so care-free while over there, it was great.

And then we came back to reality and went back to our normal routines, which is fine because that’s what’s supposed to happen, but it made me realize that I don’t really like my normal routine, and I know I can be doing SO much more.

I went back to working both jobs that take up AT LEAST 75% of my time most days, which I’m VERY grateful to have because some people aren’t as lucky, BUT neither of them are what I REALLY want to be doing…

It left me thinking a lot lately about why I’m giving so much of my time and energy to these things that leave me with little to no free-time for myself to be working on the things that actually matter to me? Obviously I need to work, and obviously I need money. However, why continue to give all this time and energy to these things that are in no way, shape, or form adding real meaning to my life nor my career??

*I’m predominantly referring to my second job, not my primary one, btw.*

Doing this, I’ve quickly realized, is actually what’s sucking the energy, motivation and creativity away from me. It’s leaving me exhausted all of the time, and is what’s forcing me to have lack of motivation to do anything but rest really.

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My writing and blog are SO important to me, and because of all this, it’s caused me to have writer’s block more so than what I normally would have. I know the type of things I want to write and talk about, but I’ve been second guessing myself SO much recently and don’t actually know or feel like they’re interesting enough to publish on my site.

I’m such a perfectionist and have such high expectations for myself that it’s hard for me to actually put myself and my writing out there sometimes when I don’t feel like it’s my best, and this just adds on to it since I feel like I’m not really giving it my all.

I mean, who wants to post just to post? Not me.

I want to make sure that if I’m posting and putting myself out there, it’s because I’m giving you guys my best.

I’m also well-aware that I’ve got no one to blame but myself for this, because I’m the one who chose to pick up a second job, and money-wise it’s been okay, but at what cost?

I’m past the point of doing these things and jobs that don’t mean much to me. I want and need to start focusing more on finding things that make me happy and continue to be an asset to my life as well as my creativity.

I want to be happy doing the work that I am, and although I was content with these things, jobs, etc. for a while, I’m realizing more and more that it’s time to take a step back from all of that (while being smart about it obviously), and really begin to look for and do work in the specific field that I want.

That being said, I’m making the executive decision to make some big changes in my life in the coming weeks/months.

I don’t know exactly what all of them will be and how I’m going to go about them, but even if I did, I don’t think it would be the best and/or smartest thing to do to tell you guys them just yet (I’m sort of superstitious in that sense). Once they become more final, I will be sure to share them with you guys as much as I can and bring you guys along in my journey as I’ve always promised that I would!!

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On a separate and somewhat more POSITIVE note, I’ve really been trying my best since coming back to keep myself as busy as possible with the fun and more creative stuff that I like to do like with my blog, planning other trips/events and shooting more content for my Instagram.

I told myself (as well as Diego since he is my photographer) that I want and need to be more consistent when it comes to my content on Instagram. Social media isn’t everything, but it is and I think always will be a BIG portion of where my following comes from, so it is very much true what people tend to say, that consistency IS key. So there’s that.

I’ve also seriously been considering more and more recently creating a YouTube channel.

This really isn’t anything new and is actually something I’ve been saying I want to try doing for a while now, but I don’t know….lately I’ve been watching a TON of different videos which has been inspiring me more and more to want to finally do it.

I need to figure a few more things out as far as how I’m going to have the separation between creating enjoyable content for you guys both for my blog here and on the channel, but let’s see…….LeoGirl could be coming to YouTube soon, who knows? 😏 stay tuned for that.

And finally, Diego and I have a few things coming up soon that are pretty exciting. Nothing that’s too through the roof and extravagant, but a few things that are really fun and exciting for us that I can’t wait for you guys to see, INCLUDING a very possible trip for my own birthday in August…..🤪, it’s still in the works, but remember what I told you guys, when I really want and/or put my mind to something, I will ALWAYS find a way to make it happen 😇.

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I’m really trying to remain positive because I know all of this that I’ve been feeling lately is only temporary, but I wanted to share it with you guys in hopes that it’ll show you if you’re feeling the same way at all (about any of these things), that you are not alone.

It’s a sucky feeling to have in the moment, but unfortunately that’s life, and it happens. The only thing we can do is try to think ahead and hope that we can find solutions to these things and/or have things to look forward to before it gets us down.

Regardless, I hope you guys enjoyed this post. Please like, share, follow and comment, and I’ll see you guys in my next one.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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Recap Of Christmas Weekend

Andddddd we’re back to regularly scheduled programming :/

Who else is bummed that Christmas is officially over?! Because I know I definitely am 😦 . But, at the same time, I’m actually really happy because I had a REALLY great and memorable weekend (unexpectedly at that).

I ALWAYS look forward to Christmas-time, as I’ve mentioned several times before in other posts, but I also don’t ever expect much just because it’s always relatively quiet in my house, and we (my immediate family) always end up staying home and just being with each other.

THIS YEAR, however, was completely different (in a great way). I say that because this year we got to spend it with extended family, something that we haven’t done for one reason or another in YEARS.

Now don’t get me wrong, just spending it with my immediate family for the past few years was always nice too and comfortable, but it really is always a great time when we get together with our extended family too.

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Family Time!

So, this year we were able to spend Christmas Eve AND Christmas Day with my mom’s side of the family. Christmas Eve we hosted at our house, which was Christmas Pajama themed, and Christmas Day we spent at my Godfather and aunt’s house, which was Christmas Slipper themed.

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Both were ridiculously fun, filled with Christmas music, laughter, gift giving, games, karaoke and an overwhelming amount of food and desserts (not complaining about that though lol).

When we (the cousins) were all younger, it would be like our little Christmas tradition to always get together and spend Christmas at SOMEONE’S house from the family. So the fact that for a while there it had stopped was kind of sad, but I’m SO glad we finally got to pick up on it because it was definitely a blast.

*Also, if you read my ‘The Christmas Tag’ post from Blogmas day 1 (which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out), you would’ve seen that my top “Christmas wish” was to be able to have this happen, so the fact that it actually DID was really awesome for me.*

Overall, it was a really great weekend, and although it wasn’t my ENTIRE family there with us (from both sides), and some important people were missing, it was still fun and extremely memorable.

Plus, I got a ton of great stuff this Christmas, which was another surprising thing because I really don’t ever tend to tell people things I want for Christmas and/or give them a wishlist anymore. But, let’s get into a few of the things I got….

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Presents!!

Firstly, I just want to start off by saying that I’m not usually the type to show off every single thing I get for my birthday, Christmas, etc., I just find it kind of weird and also tend to feel bad.

Sure, I’m grateful for everything I get, and I’ll show one or 2 things that I really love, but overall I just end up feeling bad about it because I never want to make it seem like I’m throwing things in peoples faces. What if they can’t afford things like that? Or what if they don’t usually get things for these occasions at all? Just a few of the things that go through my mind for things like this…

However, I’ve come to realize that doing what I’m doing now (blogging) and how into it I’ve gotten, it’s kind of a necessity to do that. Not necessarily show off the things I have, wear, etc., but to the same extent, that’s kind of exactly what it is, which is why more and more recently I’ve been sharing things like that with you guys.

So that’s what I’m going to be doing right now, sharing with you guys a few of the great gifts I received from my loved ones this year 🙂

  1. The first few things I want to mention are actually stuff that Diego got for me. We’re actually really weird when it comes to gift giving, because we get so excited about doing it and what we got the other person that we end up talking about it ALL the time (without actually saying what it is), and have the anticipation kill the other person lol. This year he got me this GORGEOUS Coach bag (which he knew I needed because although I almost never switch out my bag(s) once I get used to them, it was LONG overdue for a new one) and 2 masks from the brand GlamGlow because he knows I LOVE face masks. ❤
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Gifts from Diego ❤

2. These aren’t all of them, but they are a few of the gifts that I received from my parents. I’ve never heard of the brand that blue bag is from, but it’s called Karl Lagerfeld Paris and I think it’s SO cute. Tiny, but definitely fashionable and can hold quite a few of my little things that I typically tend to carry in my purses. Then you have these UGG rain/snow boots which are great too because I’ve been DYING for a pair of boots like this for the longest, and what better then a simple black pair? Then you have this Miss Dior perfume that I’ve been wanting because it smells SO pretty AND……it’s Demi’s favorite perfume ….are you surprised? You shouldn’t be….And finally, you have this cute little Christmas story book. If you guys haven’t realized by now, I’m a bigass kid, ESPECIALLY when it comes to cute little things like this, I mean c’mon….LOOK AT IT!!!!! 😭😍 Plus, I cannot WAIT until I have kids one day to read these to them, and even pass them along to them…ugh it’s going to be the best!! (Again, just a few of the things they got me, not all).

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(Some) Gifts from my parents ❤

3. This is a gift I actually got from a good friend of mine and Diego’s named Geno. How freakin’ dope are these?! I’ve come to REALLY love this brand and it’s style. So far, I have a t-shirt from them (courtesy of Diego), another pair of sneakers although they’re off-white (also courtesy of Diego), and now these!! Can’t wait to take some cool pictures with these on and show them to you guys! 😀

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Gift from my friend Geno 😀

4. And finally……the gifts I received from my brother and his fiance!! You guys, I was so damn excited when I saw this….lol. For those of you that don’t know, I’m a HUGE Potterhead, so this was ridiculously exciting for me!! It’s actually pretty funny, because about a month ago, I had told Chris (my brother), that if no one got me a wand for Christmas…everyone hated me, and he/they actually remembered and did it!! 😂. Plus, the books are always great to read (especially now with the illustrations to back them up), and I love penguins AND fuzzy socks, so it was a general win/win for me. Thanks guys!! ❤

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Gifts from my brother and his fiancée ❤

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I hope that you guys not only enjoyed this post, but also had an AMAZING Christmas with your family, friends and/or general loved ones, and that you got everything you wanted.

Please follow, like, share and comment and I’ll see you guys in my next post!

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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1-Year Fitness Update!

Hey Everybodyyyy! Happy Hump Day! 🙂

In today’s post I really wanted to be able to talk to you guys about my 1-year fitness update; how it’s been going, where I’m at with it right now, and where I hope to be in the next few months (my goal).

This is something that I’m a little nervous about, as I’m sure most people would be, just because health, fitness and weight in general, are all really sensitive topics to speak about, especially in this day and age. However, I thought it was important to share this with you guys for a few different reasons.

Important because firstly, it’s a pretty big milestone (for me). Secondly, because who knows, maybe somehow or another me speaking about this will help and/or inspire someone else in their own fitness journey, or to even START their own fitness journey. And lastly (although this sort of piggy-backs off of the first two reasons), because I just recently did an entire post on confidence and self-love (which I’ll leave linked here if you guys wanted to check it out), and so what kind of person/writer would I be if I didn’t speak out on something as important as body-positivity and self-love more in-depth for something as sensitive as this?

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How The Past Year Has Been Going:

The first thing I want to speak about with this is probably the most obvious thing, which is, how this past year has been (fitness-wise). And well….let’s be honest, dieting is hard and it sucks ass. You really have to learn self- control when it comes to something like this, ESPECIALLY if you’re used to eating a certain way for a certain amount of years, which I pretty much was.

I’ve mentioned it before, several times, but I am not only a picky-eater, I’m also a MAJOR junk-food eater. Put those 2 things together, and you’ve pretty much got a recipe for disaster (in my case anyway).

Now, I’ve never been the best eater, throughout my entire life. BUT, I will say that it got really bad when I was away in college (as I’ve spoken about once before in my first health post, the reasons for this, etc. which I’ll leave linked here ). I gained A LOT of weight in college, I would actually say that the majority of my weight gain happened in college (freshmen 15 is no joke ya’ll even though it extended over the course of 4-years, but whateverrr!).

But it just got to a point where I literally weighed the heaviest that I EVER did. I definitely wasn’t obese, but for my age, height, etc. the weight I was at (at the time) was NOT good. Plus, I was not happy and/or confident in my body AT ALL. It was a bad time, for a long time. And I’m sure other people noticed it obviously, but few actually told me about it. Which was fine I suppose, because it’s one of those things that you kind of just need to see/realize for yourself in order to make any sort of change.

There were times where Diego would REALLY try to push me to go to the gym, and I would go, but then I would just be eating whatever still before or after it, so it was completely defeating the purpose. It took a few months after I started my fitness journey for it to REALLY start. And what I mean by that is, for a good 4-5 months, I had gotten the whole working out, and going to the gym consistently part down, but I wasn’t taking the food portion of it seriously, so I hadn’t been seeing results.

It wasn’t until about May that I started to take both super seriously, not to the point that I turned anal about it, but to the point where I actually started seeing results now, so it was the actual exciting part.

And I’m not going to lie to you guys, it’s hard af to keep up a diet, there were SO many times when I would give in to any/all of the cravings that I had, whether it was with regular food or junk food, and would see what little progress I made turn to shit. However, I learned to not only control those urges, but also not deprive myself of the little things that I wanted, and would find healthier alternatives to go around that, while also being able to stick to my diet.

Every once in a while like during “that time of the month,” it gets a little difficult because of cravings and what not, but over time I have actually really felt like it’s gotten easier.

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Where I’m At Now:

Between going to the gym AT LEAST 4-5 times a week, and cleaning up my eating TREMENDOUSLY, I have seen SUCH an insane amount of progress.

I think you guys can agree with me that how we perceive ourselves and our bodies can be really iffy sometimes. Sure, you have your days where you’re feeling GREAT and super confident with yourself throughout workouts, after workouts, etc., but there are also those days where you pretty much look exactly the same, but the confidence just isn’t there. You don’t feel yourself which, as a result, causes your confidence to diminish a little.

Well in general, that’s happened to me pretty frequently, especially since, although I know I’ve made a lot of progress, I’m not quite where I want to be yet and some days are harder than others to see the results that a lot of other people see, in yourself.

HOWEVER, I’ve learned that I really need to give myself credit when it’s due, and little by little (with each pound being shed), I have been gaining the confidence back that I used to have a few years ago.

I think my progress actually hit me the most thanks to some pictures that I took last Thursday (on Thanksgiving). I’m not exactly sure what I was doing or why I was doing it, but at some point during the night I was scrolling through old pictures on my phone and came across the ones I took last year for Thanksgiving. It didn’t fully occur to me until I decided to do a side-by-side picture of that and the one(s) I had just taken earlier that day and this is what I saw:

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Last year thanksgiving vs. thanksgiving this year…a 26 pound difference. On the left, I was at about 203lbs and currently, on the right, I’m at 177.

I’m not at all happy and/or proud of the way I look on the left side, in fact, I’m kind of embarrassed to be showing that picture compared to me now, BUT I am SUPER proud to see how much of a difference between the two there really is.

If you know me, and even if you don’t really but follow me on social media and see my posts, you would know in recent months how much work I’ve truly been putting in at the gym, and this is just proof of that. I am super proud of where I currently am at now and can’t wait to see where I’m going to be in a few months with this fitness journey of mine!!

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Where I Want To Be (My Goal):

As I said earlier, I’m not at all where I want to be yet, but I know that slowly but surely, I’m getting to meet that goal.

Ultimately, my main goal is to lose another 10-15 pounds and tone up my body a little more, then just continue to maintain it from there.

If I continue the work-out and eating regimen that I currently have, I really don’t see how or why I wouldn’t achieve these mini goals that I have set for myself (unless of course I just happen to throw it all out the window one day, which I don’t count on doing).

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Overall, it definitely has NOT been an easy fitness journey for me, but looking back at where I once was, and seeing where I am now, is enough motivation for me to keep pushing through. Besides, I’m not looking for easy and never have. And between my own confidence and Diego behind me pushing me to keep going, I know I’m going to end up hitting all of my fitness goals sooner rather than later.

Well guys, that’s it. That is my 1-year fitness update. I hope you guys like this post, and that in some way, shape or form it helped and/or motivated you to keep pushing through your hurdles that may be stopping you from going to the gym or just continuing your own fitness journey. You CAN do it. It’s going to take time and dedication, but it is 100% possible. Keep pushing through and I promise you that you’ll end up seeing results!

Thank you guys so much for reading, please like, follow, comment and share, and I’ll see you guys in my next post! 🙂

-Xoxo, Leo Girl ❤

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