What I’ve Been Up To Throughout Quarantine

Hey guys!

Long time no see!

I hate going MIA with my personal work the way that I have been lately, especially without much explanation to you guys, it bothers me SO much, but at the same time I think it’s really been needed.

People say all the time that sometimes it’s good and needed to be able to take a step back from everything and disconnect for a bit, in order to help your mental health and I think that’s very true. I’ve been posting here and there, but for the most I’ve been really trying to disconnect for a while. A while ended up turning into about 2-3 months, but like I said, it was needed.

If you’ve been reading my recent blog posts and watching my recent YT videos, you’ve probably seen that I’ve been dealing with a lot lately, as far as my mental health.

So because of this, it’s really been needed for me to take a step back and really understand/figure things out with myself, and it hasn’t at all been easy; in fact, it’s been some of the most difficult months of my life thus far, but I think I’m slowly but surely starting to get a handle on things and feel more like myself again.

Trust me that I am nowhere NEAR where I want to be yet, but I’m taking things day by day, and slowly, things have been getting better.

With that being said and since I’ve been MIA for quite some time, I really wanted to be able to let you guys know some of the things I’ve been doing lately to keep busy and that have been helping a LOT; so that’s what I’ll be doing today. 🙂

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The first thing I’ve been doing is praying.

I have been praying a LOT lately guys.

I’m not one to speak too much about religion on my platforms because I know there are all types of religions, opinions on religion, etc., but it’s something I’ve really gotten back into. Technically speaking, I am Catholic, born and raised, but over the years (for my own personal reasons) I have drifted away from my faith a lot.

Recently, however, I’ve gotten back into it. I pray, at least, twice a day, I’ve been reading the Bible more, etc. Am I a hardcore Catholic? No, I never have been; BUT I’ve found recently that doing these things have really been putting my mind and heart at ease when I’ve needed it the most, so for this reason and a few others, I’ve reestablished my faith, and am very grateful for it.

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The next thing I’ve been doing a lot recently is meditation.

I will say that this is only something I got into because of the anxiety I’ve been dealing with recently, HOWEVER, I’m very grateful for getting into it to begin with because it’s helped me SO much. I definitely don’t do it nearly as much as I probably should, but the few times I do do it, it does indeed help relax me. Right now I only meditate once a day, which is typically in the morning, so that I am starting each day with a nice, calm mind.

I think in a previous post I mentioned that I use the Calm app (which is something you have to pay for after the 7-day free trial is up) for my particular meditiations, but there are a ton of good guided meditations all over YouTube that are just as good for it (and free!).

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The next thing I’ve done a lot recently (and is actually one of my favorites) is reading!!

You guys know that I have ALWAYS been a major book worm, but unfortunately in the past year or so I had almost entirely put reading in the back burner because I was constantly on the go with creating content, traveling, the gym, etc. etc. (was I also probably just using those things as an excuse because I got lazy about it? Yes).

But this is honestly something that I am SO happy to have come back to because it really is true when people say that readers are leaders. I have been reading and educating myself on so many different things (mostly mental health/anxiety and spirituality) recently and it just feels so good to be back to it.

In the past month or so, I’ve already read about 5-6 books and that isn’t going to be stopping anytime soon since I have a humongous stack of books sitting in my room waiting to be cracked open!

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The next thing is going on a daily walk.

Seeing as how all of the gyms are still closed and I’ve sort of given up on the idea of doing at-home workouts, I needed to get my body moving somehow and get my daily dose of cardio in so I started going on a walk every day, in the middle of the day.

Almost everyday during the week (weather permitting), my best friend Geno and I go on a walk around the block during my lunch time at work.  It may not seem like much to some people, but between the walk itself (which comes out to about a mile) and the talking/eating if we get lunch that day, it’s always a great time and helps to keep the rest of the day running smoothly. It’s like a midday stress reliever in a way.

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The next thing I’ve been up to is getting more and more into plants!!

It’s kind of funny actually because my dad has ALWAYS loved plants and our house, front yard and backyard has always been covered in them, but only recently have I actually been learning about and getting more into them and what it takes to have a ‘green thumb’.

I recently became a plant mom myself and now currently own one snake plant and one bamboo one. Not only are they cute little decor pieces for my room, but I also love the beauty behind what they stand for and being able to take care of something else as well; plant therapy is a real thing!!

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The next thing I’ve been doing is more crystal healing.

This is by no means a “new” thing for me, but it is something that I’ve been doing a lot more of recently. At the beginning of 2020, in my vision board for the year, I mentioned how I wanted to tap into and learn about spirituality more and that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. Learning more about crystals, their individual healing powers, incorporating them into my meditations, and just generally growing my crystal collection more and more.

If I’m being honest, spirituality is one of the main things that has been helping me throughout this whole time in quarantine dealing with my anxiety. If you’ve ever been even remotely interested in it, I would definitely recommend expanding your knowledge on it because you’d be surprised at the healing properties behind them and what they can do for you.

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And finally, I have little by little been getting back into the swing of my content creating.

You guys have no idea how badly I have missed being able to create content for you guys….and I know that I stopped because of my own personal reasons, but I also knew that if I couldn’t get myself together, there was no way I was going to be able to put on any sort of facade for you guys. That’s not me. That’s not what my work is or will ever be. I’ve always told you guys that if I’m putting something out there for you guys to watch, read, etc. it’s because it’s real and I’m proud of it.

That wouldn’t have happened had I been somehow or another pumping out content the past 2-3 months. I mean I tried to to some extent, but even that was just me being real and vulnerable and updating you guys on what’s been going on with me.

Now is different though. Now I’m finally at a place where I can start to be myself again and put things out there for you guys, but also still incorporate the things I’ve been going through and feeling lately, which I hope I’ve been doing a good job at.

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I hope you guys enjoyed this post and that it gave you all a better understanding of where I’ve been at and what I’ve been up to.

Sorry that it’s taken a while, but I’m back and I can’t wait to continue making content for you guys.

Please let me know below any possible suggestions of things you want me to write about next and I’ll be sure to incorporate it.

Thanks so much for reading and supporting me recently through everything I’ve been dealing with and I’ll see you guys in the next one!

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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Life Update: What’s Really Been Going On

Hey guys,

I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe throughout everything that has been going on in the world recently.

Life has been really crazy, and I’m not even just talking about with quarantine anymore…..but that’s a conversation for another day.

I wanted to make this post today to be honest with you guys and let you in on what’s been going on with me recently. I made a YouTube video talking all about it a few days ago which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out.

I wanted to be able to make a blog post talking about it because I know I sort of have a different type of audience here then I do on my other platforms and that parts of my audience would rather read then watch videos on things like this, so here we are.

I know in my previous blog posts I had mentioned how I was really content throughout our time in quarantine and actually really enjoyed it and was getting a ton of work done, but I guess deep down, that wasn’t true at all.

My guess is that although originally I was content in the beginning and okay with being home all this time, the more time I spent at home, the more it started to get to me….

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About a month ago on May 14th, I suffered from what I can only assume was my first panic attack. It was a random Thursday afternoon at about 5pm, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary other than working like I always did, when suddenly I started to feel really weird internally. I started to feel lightheaded and almost like my heart rate was dropping. So, I went into the kitchen to see and talk to my mom in hopes that it would distract me and the feeling would go away, because I figured that I was probably just sitting in front of my computer for too long. When I got up, I felt slightly worse, and I told my mom what I was feeling, that it felt like I could barely breath and like I was going to pass out at any minute (thankfully I didn’t though). We weren’t really sure what was happening so all we did was have me drink really cold water and throw some cold water on my face and neck. After I just walked up and down my driveway to get some air and stretch my legs…..that was the first episode. It went away shortly after that, but it was the  official start of me having anxiety.

The next serious/scary episode was about 3 days later when my mom and I decided to take a little walk to this store nearby our house. Well that “little walk” ended up turning into a 5 mile one when we decided to walk to this Target that’s about 20 minutes more or less away. The walk going was nice, we took our time and just enjoyed it all, but once we actually got to the Target, everything changed…we got there and the line to get in was a little ridiculous, but people were telling us that it was going relatively quick, so we decided to wait about 5-10 minutes on line and see how far we got. As SOON as we got to the back of the line, I immediately started to feel almost exactly how I did on Thursday, and like I was going to pass out. I obviously got very nervous since we were in a very public place and it was just mom and I. Within 2 minutes, I ended up telling my mom that we should just go, so we did. I honestly don’t even know how I managed to get home. The whole walk home was miserable, my chest was tight, I was lightheaded and my right arm started to feel numb-ish. It was all just very scary. We finally ended up getting home, and again, everything ended up being somewhat okay and going away.

The days following this one were on and off…..one day I would feel anxious and uneasy, the next, I was fine. The whole thing was just really scary because who ever wants to feel like they can’t breath, even if it is all mental? The more it happened, the more freaked out and anxious I was throughout the day; constantly feeling nervous, constantly feeling my heart area to make sure that it WAS beating, etc. It was even scarier not knowing WHY any of this was happening. We had our guesses, but we had no way to know for sure.

Due to the circumstances of COVID-19, relatively everything was still closed at the time, and the last thing we wanted to do was go all the way to the hospital with all of this going on, if it wasn’t serious,  AND rack up a ridiculous hospital bill for the check-up. However, the Tuesday following Memorial Day weekend , we were FINALLY able to get an appointment with my primary physician. It was the most exciting and nerve-racking thing. Exciting because I was FINALLY going to find out if something was wrong, but nerve-racking because what if something WAS wrong and serious?

Sure enough, thank GOD, my doctor checked all the important stuff (my heart, lungs, stomach and blood pressure) and everything internally was fine to him. Although he’s not a therapist in any way, shape or form, based off of everything I was telling him that I felt, he basically confirmed what we were all assuming it was, which was stress and anxiety.

As soon as we left the doctor I almost instantly felt a wave of relief. Yes, it still sucked that I was feeling and going through all of these things, but unbelievably relieved to know that it was nothing seriously wrong with me internally. It also almost entirely confirmed what we assumed it was, so we were then able to actually look into things and treatments for anxiety. It gave us some type of clarity.

Ever since than, I’ve been doing research like crazy online, readings books about it, and looking for recommendations for how to help my anxiety.

It’s been a little over a month now that I’ve been dealing with this, and although it can be really scary, there are good and bad days, and I can honestly say that things haven’t been anywhere near as bad as they were when it all started. I think I’m finally getting a handle on this.

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I want to apologize because I almost feel like I lied to you guys about how I was feeling in my previous posts, but it wasn’t my intention. I genuinely felt like I was content and okay with being home working all this time, but deep down like I said, I wasn’t. I guess between quarantine from the virus and everything else going on in the news/world, it really started to get to me.

It got so bad that I couldn’t focus on my work, and I was barely eating and sleeping. Anxiety can be such a scary thing if you don’t know or learn how to control it. It makes you feel like you’re losing yourself and you have no control of getting yourself back.

In my next post, I’m going to be sharing with you guys some of the things that have been helping me cope/ease my mind and anxiety for the past month, so make sure you stay tuned for that.

I hope this post was informative and gave you guys a better sense of where I’ve been and how I’ve really been doing. It’s been really hard, and it’s kind of felt like I’ve lost myself in the past month or so, but everyday I’m working towards getting better, stronger and healthier again, and I can’t wait for the day that I can finally say I’m 100% feeling myself again.

It was also really important for me to share this with you guys in hopes of it possibly inspiring someone else to come out with their story and showing them that they’re not alone. I know that was a major issue for me when this all started was that I felt really emotional and alone, because I could explain it a million different times to a million different people, but them knowing that I’m healthy and never actually experiencing it for themselves, they’ll never really understand. So, if you happen to be someone going through this as well, please feel free to comment below or reach out to me privately so we can talk about it and connect. I would love to hear from you guys about it.

Thanks you guys for reading and following me on this new little journey of mine. I hope you continue to stick around and hopefully see a better me soon.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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FINALLY!

Another life update post?!

Yes, unfortunately for now this is just another life update post.

Hi everyone, long time no see!!

I know that it’s been a while….*3 months to be exact 🙃*…..but I swear I’m back this time!! I know you guys don’t believe me at this point, and that’s fine, but I’m willing to wait and gain your guys’ trust back little by little as I continue to post more.

But for some background context, I did want to just quickly update you guys on a few things that’s been going on in the past 3 months.

  1. Diego and I celebrated our 5 year anniversary!! (July 5, 2014 ❤️)

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We kept it chill and low-key for the most part, doing a few of the things that we always loved to do together (i.e., eat a lot, watch movies, etc. lol). But one of the best parts was being able to do this little wine tour in Long Island, New York, where we were able to visit 3 different wineries and try a TON of different wines.  Super fun and really not THAT expensive; we got tickets for this on Groupon!

2. I FINALLY STARTED MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!! (July 12, 2019)

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This is probably one of the most exciting things I wanted to update you guys on, because even here on my blog I’ve spoken quite a few times about wanting to do this, and I FINALLY did. It was so nerve-wrecking, and I’m still getting the hang of it, but it’s been so much fun and I have a TON of videos coming soon!! 😀 If you haven’t already done so, please make sure to check it out, and don’t forget to subscribe to stay up to date with all of my videos!! 😄 Check it out here!

3. I celebrated my 24th birthday!! 🎈🎉 (August 17th)

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The day before my birthday, Friday, me, Diego and about 3 of our other good friends actually ended up waking up at the crack of dawn to go have a little birthday photoshoot for me in the city. I actually can’t believe that we all pulled it off, woke up that early and made it happen honestly, but we did and the pictures came out AMAZING (I think). *If you haven’t seen them already, be sure to head over to my Instagram to check them out!!*

For the day OF, we kept my birthday pretty low-key for the most part. I’m not the type to like to do anything over the top and extravagant, I’m actually pretty simple and appreciate the little things, which Diego knows, and that’s why he ended up surprising me with a group of my closest friends at my house. We just ended up eating pizza, snacks, drinking a little and jamming to some music in my backyard for the night and I had the BEST time doing it. It really was a great time!

4. AND FINALLY, We went on vacation again!!!!! (August 31st-September 7th)

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Thats right, ANOTHER vacation!! Except this time it was within the United States and we went with my brother Chris and our good friend Geno. It was actually a late sort of birthday trip/celebration for me. This time around we actually went to California (specifically to San Francisco and Los Angeles). *Stay tuned for my travel diary videos about them coming soon to my channel! 😉 * We were in California for only a week and man did I instantly fall in love with it!! I can’t WAIT to go back! For the meantime though, go check out my Instagram to see my saved California story highlights as well as pictures from throughout the trip (social medias are always linked below 🙂 ).

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Well there you have it guys; that’s my “major” life update that I have for you all at the moment. I really do apologize for being so M.I.A. on here, I just kind of fell off and lost my mojo for it, which I’m sure many people, writers, etc., can understand happens from time to time. But, here I am, starting fresh again and hopefully coming back stronger then before!

I hope you guys enjoyed this post, and I’ll see you all in the next one.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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