Life Update: What’s Really Been Going On

Hey guys,

I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe throughout everything that has been going on in the world recently.

Life has been really crazy, and I’m not even just talking about with quarantine anymore…..but that’s a conversation for another day.

I wanted to make this post today to be honest with you guys and let you in on what’s been going on with me recently. I made a YouTube video talking all about it a few days ago which I’ll leave linked here if you want to check it out.

I wanted to be able to make a blog post talking about it because I know I sort of have a different type of audience here then I do on my other platforms and that parts of my audience would rather read then watch videos on things like this, so here we are.

I know in my previous blog posts I had mentioned how I was really content throughout our time in quarantine and actually really enjoyed it and was getting a ton of work done, but I guess deep down, that wasn’t true at all.

My guess is that although originally I was content in the beginning and okay with being home all this time, the more time I spent at home, the more it started to get to me….

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About a month ago on May 14th, I suffered from what I can only assume was my first panic attack. It was a random Thursday afternoon at about 5pm, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary other than working like I always did, when suddenly I started to feel really weird internally. I started to feel lightheaded and almost like my heart rate was dropping. So, I went into the kitchen to see and talk to my mom in hopes that it would distract me and the feeling would go away, because I figured that I was probably just sitting in front of my computer for too long. When I got up, I felt slightly worse, and I told my mom what I was feeling, that it felt like I could barely breath and like I was going to pass out at any minute (thankfully I didn’t though). We weren’t really sure what was happening so all we did was have me drink really cold water and throw some cold water on my face and neck. After I just walked up and down my driveway to get some air and stretch my legs…..that was the first episode. It went away shortly after that, but it was the  official start of me having anxiety.

The next serious/scary episode was about 3 days later when my mom and I decided to take a little walk to this store nearby our house. Well that “little walk” ended up turning into a 5 mile one when we decided to walk to this Target that’s about 20 minutes more or less away. The walk going was nice, we took our time and just enjoyed it all, but once we actually got to the Target, everything changed…we got there and the line to get in was a little ridiculous, but people were telling us that it was going relatively quick, so we decided to wait about 5-10 minutes on line and see how far we got. As SOON as we got to the back of the line, I immediately started to feel almost exactly how I did on Thursday, and like I was going to pass out. I obviously got very nervous since we were in a very public place and it was just mom and I. Within 2 minutes, I ended up telling my mom that we should just go, so we did. I honestly don’t even know how I managed to get home. The whole walk home was miserable, my chest was tight, I was lightheaded and my right arm started to feel numb-ish. It was all just very scary. We finally ended up getting home, and again, everything ended up being somewhat okay and going away.

The days following this one were on and off…..one day I would feel anxious and uneasy, the next, I was fine. The whole thing was just really scary because who ever wants to feel like they can’t breath, even if it is all mental? The more it happened, the more freaked out and anxious I was throughout the day; constantly feeling nervous, constantly feeling my heart area to make sure that it WAS beating, etc. It was even scarier not knowing WHY any of this was happening. We had our guesses, but we had no way to know for sure.

Due to the circumstances of COVID-19, relatively everything was still closed at the time, and the last thing we wanted to do was go all the way to the hospital with all of this going on, if it wasn’t serious,  AND rack up a ridiculous hospital bill for the check-up. However, the Tuesday following Memorial Day weekend , we were FINALLY able to get an appointment with my primary physician. It was the most exciting and nerve-racking thing. Exciting because I was FINALLY going to find out if something was wrong, but nerve-racking because what if something WAS wrong and serious?

Sure enough, thank GOD, my doctor checked all the important stuff (my heart, lungs, stomach and blood pressure) and everything internally was fine to him. Although he’s not a therapist in any way, shape or form, based off of everything I was telling him that I felt, he basically confirmed what we were all assuming it was, which was stress and anxiety.

As soon as we left the doctor I almost instantly felt a wave of relief. Yes, it still sucked that I was feeling and going through all of these things, but unbelievably relieved to know that it was nothing seriously wrong with me internally. It also almost entirely confirmed what we assumed it was, so we were then able to actually look into things and treatments for anxiety. It gave us some type of clarity.

Ever since than, I’ve been doing research like crazy online, readings books about it, and looking for recommendations for how to help my anxiety.

It’s been a little over a month now that I’ve been dealing with this, and although it can be really scary, there are good and bad days, and I can honestly say that things haven’t been anywhere near as bad as they were when it all started. I think I’m finally getting a handle on this.

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I want to apologize because I almost feel like I lied to you guys about how I was feeling in my previous posts, but it wasn’t my intention. I genuinely felt like I was content and okay with being home working all this time, but deep down like I said, I wasn’t. I guess between quarantine from the virus and everything else going on in the news/world, it really started to get to me.

It got so bad that I couldn’t focus on my work, and I was barely eating and sleeping. Anxiety can be such a scary thing if you don’t know or learn how to control it. It makes you feel like you’re losing yourself and you have no control of getting yourself back.

In my next post, I’m going to be sharing with you guys some of the things that have been helping me cope/ease my mind and anxiety for the past month, so make sure you stay tuned for that.

I hope this post was informative and gave you guys a better sense of where I’ve been and how I’ve really been doing. It’s been really hard, and it’s kind of felt like I’ve lost myself in the past month or so, but everyday I’m working towards getting better, stronger and healthier again, and I can’t wait for the day that I can finally say I’m 100% feeling myself again.

It was also really important for me to share this with you guys in hopes of it possibly inspiring someone else to come out with their story and showing them that they’re not alone. I know that was a major issue for me when this all started was that I felt really emotional and alone, because I could explain it a million different times to a million different people, but them knowing that I’m healthy and never actually experiencing it for themselves, they’ll never really understand. So, if you happen to be someone going through this as well, please feel free to comment below or reach out to me privately so we can talk about it and connect. I would love to hear from you guys about it.

Thanks you guys for reading and following me on this new little journey of mine. I hope you continue to stick around and hopefully see a better me soon.

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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One Lesson I Learned This Past Month

Hey guys and happy Sunday!

Holy crap, I honestly can’t believe it’s Sunday again AND that we’re already in May…where the heck did the time go?! It’s flying by, which I still haven’t decided yet if that’s a good or bad thing.

But, for today’s post I wanted to talk to you about something I’ve learned throughout this past month while in quarantine.

There’s actually a lot of different things that I can say in this post about the things I’ve learned recently, but if I had to choose one, and settle on the MAIN thing, it would be PATIENCE.

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PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE

I don’t think I ever fully knew/understood what that phrase really meant until this whole situation started and I had no choice but to learn the hard way about it.

Wouldn’t you guys agree?

I mean think about it, literally EVERYTHING in this situation requires patience, like it or not.

  • Patience to wait, know and understand the severity of the situation.
  • Patience about whether or not you’re going to still have a job during and even after all of this is over.
  • Patience for all of our stimulus checks to finally hit our accounts and/or unemployment (if you qualified for both/either).
  • Patience for the lines to get in and out of relatively ANY store to get whatever it is you may need.
  • Patience for how long this is all going to last.
  • Patience for your kids’ virtual learning.
  • Patience for constantly being around the same few people 24/7 whether that’s a significant other, your kids, roommates, etc. that you may not normally be used to being around THIS much.

The list could really go on and on.

The point is that, like I said, like it or not we’ve all had to adapt and be patient during this time. I know that for me personally, it’s been a month and a half in quarantine thus far and it’s definitely been tough at times because I’m so used to being on the go (as I’m sure a lot of you guys can relate to as well).

This is our new ‘norm’ for the time being, so we really have no choice but to suck it up, be patient , make the best of it somehow and wait for the day (hopefully soon) that this is all over and behind us.

Things are definitely tough right now for everybody and I’m sure people are starting to, if not already been, antsy about it all, but I have no doubt that this is all coming to an end soon and we’ll be able to get back to reality. We’ve just got to continue to be patient as doctors, nurses and everyone else in between that have been helping to get the situation under control keep doing their thing, as well as us continuing to do our part in all of this (i.e., Social distancing, wearing masks WHEN NEEDED, washing our hands, etc.).

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What’s something that YOU guys learned this past month? I would love to hear from you guys about it and discuss it!

I hope you guys enjoyed this post, and if you did please always remember to drop a like on it and follow me for more posts if you aren’t already!

I hope you guys have a great rest of the weekend. It’s been high 70s here in New York so if you live here, try to get out and enjoy the weather a little while still being protected and practicing social distancing!

BTW, I just OFFICIALLY joined the TikTok community!! Haha, so if you have TikTok and are interested in keeping up with me there and watching some funny little videos, definitely be sure to follow me! My @ is always down below along with the rest of my social media accounts to stay connected with me! 🙂

Until my next post….

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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What Inspires Me?

Hey everyone!

Happy New Year!!

I hope you all had an amazing holiday season filled with a ton of food, great laughs, and quality family/friends time.

Today’s post, as you saw from the title, is going to be all about what inspires me and any/all work that I do.

I thought this would be a good post to write about because I know me personally, am always interested in hearing what inspires others to keep themselves going, to put out their best work, etc. Especially since everyone is different and always has different ways of doing things.

I ALWAYS say, what works for me, may not work for you guys; BUT what if it did? You just never know, which is why I think it’s great to share these things because you could come out trying something new that ended up doing wonders for you.

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Everything I’m going to mention may seem a little all over the place, just because there are a variety of things that inspire me, my work and the ways that I do things, so I’m going to try and explain everything as best I can.

The general things that tend to push me to keep going:

My goals
The life that i want to be able to live
The things that I want to be able to have
Wanting to be able to travel the world

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What inspires my work:

I am constantly writing down ideas in my notebook or in the notes app on my phone for photoshoots, blog posts or YouTube video ideas now.

I can literally just be sitting anywhere and thinking about a million different things at once, and all of these ideas will just start rushing to mind. Something comes from something, so a lot of times if I have an idea about one particular project, it’ll also plant the seed for another idea in some way, shape or form.

For example, for the holiday season that just passed, I was thinking about some of the basic ideas that I could do posts, pictures or videos on (traditions, baking, favorite movies, etc.), but then I just expanded it from there. Doing your research on things like this tends to help too.

Another example would be when I was thinking about places to shoot in the city during the holidays, I looked up a bunch of the ‘basic’, touristy places, BUT in looking up those places I also ended up finding some hidden gems that I hadn’t really seen done before.

With one, comes several.

Sometimes I find inspiration from just walking around the city and observing the things and places around me that I end up walking by.

Pintrest can also be very helpful, so is the explore page on Instagram a lot of times. I’ll look up some things that I had in mind for an outfit, a color, etc. and thousands of other things come up that end up helping me build on my own idea.

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What inspires my life:

I know this probably sounds a little like huh? But as I mentioned in the beginning of this post, there are a few things that motivate/push me to keep going in general.

When I start to think about all of the things that I want to be able to have/own, travel to one day, etc. it really just ignites something in me. It makes me happy and excited to WANT to keep going.

And on the off days that it’s more of a struggle than others to keep going, I simply ask myself, how do I want and/or expect to have or accomplish these things one day if I don’t work my ass off now to have all that later?

It’s really just all about doing what makes you happy and finding your purpose to keep going.

At the end of the day, once I visualize something, somehow or another, I WILL get it done. I can tweak it or completely change it as much as I want to, but once I start to visualize the BIGGER PURPOSE *wink wink*, little by little everything starts to fall into place, get easier and most importantly, get done.

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I hope you guys enjoyed and found this post interesting. I also hope that maybe it somehow helped you tap into some of your own creative juices!

If you liked this post, please make sure you remember to like it. Also, make sure to follow my blog if you haven’t already, and stay tuned for my next post!

-Xoxo, LeoGirl ❤

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